Now as I met his cold gray eyes, I felt his power. His face was
inscrutable and set, his mouth relentless. I had often wondered as I
had watched him in his home-life what stern qualities his amiability
disguised--qualities which would account for his business success. I
knew now: here was a man who could state facts in their nudity and strip
problems of their sentiment--a man who could lay aside feeling and act
with the cruelty of logic.
“You must have her,” he repeated.
“Randall,” I broke out hoarsely, “you don’t mean that.”
“I do mean it.”
“She wouldn’t allow it.”
“She’d have to if I forced her; when I’d forced her, she’d be glad.”
“But it’s impossible. It isn’t honorable.”
“Honorable! If we’d been honorable, you and I, this wouldn’t have
happened.”
“But think what people would say?”
“What people would say doesn’t matter. There are some things which go so
deep that they concern only ourselves.”
“But Vi--before ever we decide anything, it would be honest to consult
her.”
“You had her decision to-night.” He spoke bitterly, with settled
finality. “You see it’s this way: I’ve tried to make her happy; because
of you I never shall. She wants you; she’s a right to have you.”
The fire had all but gone out; the room had grown chilly. We sat without
talking, thinking of her, reviewing the brutal cruelties of life. I had
reached the logical goal of my desire--the impossible had happened.
I let my fancy run a little way ahead, picturing the first freshness of
the days that were coming. Far away, with faery sounds, bugles of the
future were blowing. I was recalled to the ominous present by the frozen
hopelessness of this just man. We were placing society at defiance; we
were settling our problem on grounds of individual expediency. Would we
have strength to be happy in spite of condemnation? Would our conception
of what was just to Vi prove just in the end?
I began to waver. I thought I saw what had happened to Randall--the
tension of the last weeks had wrought upon his nerves. He had brooded
over the situation till remorse for his own share in it had made him
lose his regard for social standards. There was a tinge of insanity
about this quixotic determination to sacrifice himself.
I went over to the fireplace and pulled the smoldering logs together,
so that they broke into a feeble flame. I did it leisurely to gain time.
With my back towards him I inquired, “Have you reckoned the cost of all
this?”
“Probably.”
“But the cost to yourself?”
“As far as I can.”
“You can’t have. You wouldn’t propose it if you had. You know what’ll be
said.”
“What’ll be said?”
“That you wanted to get rid of her and that that was why you took me
into your house.”
“Leave me out of it. If love means anything, it means sacrifice. I love
her; you’ve come between us. My love’s injuring her now, and I’m not
going to see you spoil her life by going away without her.”
“But she’ll spoil her life if she goes with me. People----”
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