In a narrow street where “the mountain” commenced, she halted and placed both her hands on my shoulders, tiptoeing against me. “One ’as to go ’ome sometime, mon ami.” She was determined to be a sportsman to the end. “But remember, mon petit, if you do not find ’er, zere are ozers.” I put my hand into my pocket. She examined what I gave her. “Mais, non!” she exclaimed, flushing. “But yes--for remembrance.” She tilted up her face and her happy eyes clouded; the tired cheeks turned whiter and the painted lips quivered. “Little one, keess me.” So I parted from this chance-met waif with her brave and generous heart---- And this was what my madness and Fiesole had taught me. For the time the memory of Vi was entirely banished from my thoughts. CHAPTER VII--SATURNALIA At my hotel I found no message. But it was still early; she might not have received my card and, as yet, did not know my address. The intoxication of the previous night still flicked my spirit into optimism--perhaps she would answer me in person. Then came the reaction--the truer judgment. If she had desired to see me, she could have sent round word to my box at the theatre. After all, why should she desire to see me? She was famous and had made her world without me. When we parted, I had left her with a memory so humiliating that it must scorch her even now. These were things which a woman finds it difficult to forgive--impossible to forget. Still, there was curiosity--a woman’s curiosity! She might resist it for a time, tantalizing both me and herself; but she would have to see me presently, if only to wound me. I scarcely stirred from my hotel, afraid lest I should miss her. By the time evening fell, I had come to a new conclusion--that the ironical scoundrel, who had so coolly pocketed my money, had destroyed my card. To make sure of reaching her, I wrote a letter to the theatre, saying many true things foolishly. Then, in sheer restlessness, I hurried to the boulevard in which her theatre was situated, hoping to get a glimpse of her either coming or going. I could not bring myself to enter--it was too horrible and beautiful--she was dancing away her womanhood in there. Shockingly fascinated as I had been by the spectacle, I felt a lover’s jealousy that strangers should watch it. I hated the gay crowds seething in to find enjoyment in my shame and her tragedy. They were jesters at something sacred. I paced the boulevard with clenched hands and snapping nerves; I could not go far away from her, and I could not go to her. Within my brain she was always dancing, dancing, and the jaded eyes of Paris grew young with greed of her sensational perfection. I longed to go to her, to protect her, to save her from herself. She needed me, though she would scorn the idea if I told her. If she would but allow it, I would carry her away from these hectic nights and this subtle, soul-destroying sensualism. Her shame was my doing; I would give all my life to make amends to her.