Laurence did as he was bidden. He leaned towards the old man, resting
his right hand upon the haunches of the ebony sphinx, which felt
singularly warm to his touch.
"The term of your probation and of mine alike draws to its close," Mr.
Rivers said in a small, thin voice; and, for almost the first time in
their intercourse, Laurence saw him smile.
"I hope this is only a passing attack, sir, and that you may rally," he
answered.--He looked up at Lowndes. "Has everything been done that can
be? Have you telegraphed for the doctors?"
"I have administered the prescribed restoratives. But Mr. Rivers ordered
that no further measures should be attempted until after his interview
with you, sir."
The sick man raised his hand feebly, yet with an imperious gesture.
"I do not propose to ask further advice of physicians," he said. "Their
science is but a mockery at this juncture; at least, in the estimation
of a person of my habit of mind. That by the employment of drugs and of
stimulants they might prolong a semblance of animation in this physical
husk of me, I do not deny. But what advantage can accrue from that, when
my mental activity is becoming paralysed, and the action of my brain
grows sluggish and intermittent? When all that differentiates a human
being from the brute beasts has perished, let the animal part perish
also. The sooner, the better; for, in itself, it is far from precious."
His voice had become very faint, and he waited, making a determined
effort, as Laurence perceived, to rally his ebbing powers.
"Tell Lowndes to go," he whispered. "I wish to be alone with you."
Then as the man-servant noiselessly withdrew, the thin, but barely
audible accents again stole out upon the fiercely heated air.
"The body, its necessities, its passions, its perpetually impeding
grossness throughout life, is an insult to the mind. But the final act
of this long course of insult, namely, the decay of this vile associate,
is the culminating insolence, the most unpardonable insult of all. I
have trained myself to ignore these thoughts, to disregard them as a
proud man disregards some mutilation or personal disfigurement. But
they crowd in upon me, refusing to be disregarded, to-night. Here lies
the sting of the insult! For as the strength of this vile, animal part
of me lessens, far from setting the intellect free, it infects this last
with its own increasing degradation. The lower drags the higher down
along with it. They grovel together. Contemptible doubts and fears
assail me. Discredited traditions press themselves upon my remembrance.
And the burden of it all is this, that I have laboured in vain. As the
body dies, so dies the mind. All the garnered knowledge of years will be
lost, will drop infertile, into the void--the insatiable void which
yawns alike for high philosopher and for drivelling pothouse sot."
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