His voice sank, in uttering the last few words, into a whisper of
concentrated bitterness. His eyes closed, and for some minutes the dying
man lay motionless.
Laurence could not bring himself to speak. The words to which he had
just listened so nearly reproduced and rendered articulate those
sensations he had himself so lately endured. The vision of all-absorbing
Nothingness again arose before him, as background to those opulent
forms, classic and pagan, upon which his eyes immediately rested. An
unholy and voluptuous life seemed to move in those forms still. A smile
curved the heavy lips of the sphinxes. The rounded, glistening arms of
the caryatides appeared outstretched less in support than in
solicitation; while the snake-locks of Medusa writhed, pushing upon each
other amorously. The flesh, triumphant in vigour and in carnal
invitation, seemed, indeed, to flout the intellect; as though the animal
functions of mankind and the symbols of these alone had power to survive
from age to age, were alone arbiters and architects of human fate. And
yet, yet, somewhere--could he but have reached it--Laurence knew there
was a way of escape. That he had come very near reaching it in the final
moments of that silent struggle downstairs, when the sweet figure of his
dear fairy-lady grew increasingly clear to his sight, he could not
doubt. And once again, with a great desiring, he desired her; for his
faith was strong that of all these things she somehow--how he could not
say as yet--held the key.
Just then Mr. Rivers raised his eyelids slightly and turned his head
upon the pillow.
"It is very horrible," he said slowly, speaking to himself rather than
to his companion. "The quantity of matter is stable. It for ever seeks
its own, and finding it re-unites. The destruction of one form is but
the necessary prelude to the development of others, and in this process
of perpetual redistribution not a fraction of the sum total is lost.
There is no waste save in the higher aspects of man's constitution--"
But here Laurence roused himself to protest.
"Matter returns to matter, sir, granted," he said. "Then why not spirit
to spirit? Are you not assuming a waste which you cannot prove? And if
spirit does return to spirit, what better than that, after all, can we
ask?"
"Spirit?" Mr. Rivers retorted, with a fine inflection of irony, and
momentary brightening of those half-closed eyes. "You, my dear Laurence,
employ words glibly enough which I hesitate to pronounce! Matter I know.
It is evident to the senses. Its actual existence--Berkeley, certain
Oriental and other philosophers notwithstanding--is, within certain
limits, susceptible of proof. And intellect I know. Its existence,
though on other lines, is equally susceptible of proof. Its action can
be registered and ratified. But spirit?--I will thank you to inform
me--what is spirit?"
The young man bowed himself together, resting his elbows on his knees.
He smiled with a half-humorous air of apology.
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