The German Classics, v. 20: Masterpieces of German Literature Translated into English
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The German Classics, v. 20: Masterpieces of German Literature Translated into English
German literature -- 19th century -- Translations into English; German literature -- 20th century -- Translations into English
HELEN (looking away). I know very well that I am asking an unheard-of
thing of you but--what else can I do ...
GERARDO (soothingly). I have given you all that's in my power to give.
Even to a princess I could not be more than I have been to you. If
there is one thing further our relations, if continued, might mean to
you, it could only be the utter ruin of your life. Now release me,
HELEN! I understand how hard you find it, but--one often fears one is
going to die. I myself often tremble for my life--art as a profession
is so likely to unstring one's nerves. It's astonishing how soon one
will get over that kind of thing. Resign yourself to the fortuitousness
of life. We did not seek one another because we loved each other; we
loved each other because we happened to find one another! (Shrugging
his shoulders.) You say I must bear the consequences of my acts, Helen.
Would you in all seriousness think ill of me now for not refusing you
admittance when you came under the pretext of having me pass on your
voice? I dare say you think too highly of your personal advantages for
that; you know yourself too well; you are too proud of your beauty.
Tell me, were you not absolutely certain of victory when you came?
HELEN (looking away). Oh, what was I a week ago! And what--what am I
now!
GERARDO (in a matter-of-fact way). Helen, ask yourself this question:
what choice is left to a man in such a case? You are generally known as
the most beautiful woman in this city. Now shall I, an artist, allow
myself to acquire the reputation of an unsociable lout who shuts
himself up in his four walls and denies himself to all visitors?
The second possibility would be to receive you while at the same time
pretending not to understand you. That would give me the wholly
undeserved reputation of a simpleton. Third possibility--but this is
extremely dangerous--I explain to you calmly and politely the very
thing I am saying to you now. But that is very dangerous! For apart
from your immediately giving me an insulting reply, calling me a vain
conceited fool, it would, if it became known, make me appear in a most
curious light. And what would at best be the result of my refusing the
honor offered me? That you would make of me a contemptible helpless
puppet, a target for your feminine wit, a booby whom you could tease
and taunt as much as you liked, whom you could torment and put on the
rack until you had driven him mad. (He has risen from the sofa.) Say
yourself, Helen; what choice was left to me? (She stares at him, then
turns her eyes about helplessly, shudders and struggles for an answer.)
In such a case I face just this alternative:--to make an enemy who
despises me or--to make an enemy who at least respects me. And
(stroking her hair) Helen!--one does not care to be despised by a woman
of such universally recognized beauty. Now does your pride still permit
you to ask me to take you with me?
HELEN (weeping profusely). Oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God ...
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