Australia -- Fiction; Autobiographical fiction; Bildungsromans; Melbourne (Vic.) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"YOU'RE A VERY UNGRATEFUL GIRL," she wrote, "TO FORGET ALL GODMOTHER
HAS DONE FOR YOU. IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR HER SUPPLYING YOU WITH BOOKS
AND THINGS I COULDN'T HAVE SENT YOU TO SCHOOL AT ALL. AND I HOPE WHEN
YOU GROW UP YOU'LL BE AS MUCH OF A HELP TO ME AS MARINA IS TO HER
MOTHER. I'D MUCH RATHER HAVE YOU GOOD AND USEFUL THAN CLEVER AND I
THINK FOR A CHILD OF YOUR AGE YOU SEE THINGS WITH VERY SHARP UNKIND
EYES. TRY AND ONLY THINK NICE THINGS ABOUT PEOPLE AND NOT BE ALWAYS
SPYING OUT THEIR FAULTS. THEN YOU'LL HAVE PLENTY OF FRIENDS AND BE
LIKED WHEREVER YOU GO."
Laura took the statement about the goodness and cleverness with a grain
of salt: she knew better. Mother thought it the proper thing to say,
and she would certainly have preferred the two qualities combined; but,
had she been forced to choose between them, there was small doubt how
her choice would have fallen out. And if, for instance, Laura confessed
that her teachers did not regard her as even passably intelligent,
there would be a nice to-do. Mother's ambitions knew no bounds; and,
wounded in these, she was quite capable of writing post-haste to Mrs.
Gurley or Mr. Strachey, complaining of their want of insight, and
bringing forward a string of embarrassing proofs. So, leaving Mother to
her pleasing illusions, Laura settled down again to her role of dunce,
now, though, with more equanimity than before. School was really not a
bad place after all--this had for some time been her growing
conviction, and the visit to Godmother seemed to bring it to a head.
About this time, too, a couple of pieces of good fortune came her way.
The first: she was privileged to be third in the friendship between
Inez and Bertha--a favour of which she availed herself eagerly, though
the three were as different from one another as three little girls
could be. Bertha was a good-natured romp, hard-fisted, thick of leg,
and of a plodding but ineffectual industry. Inez, on the other hand,
was so pretty that Laura never tired of looking at her: she had a pale
skin, hazel eyes, brown hair with a yellow light in it, and a Greek
nose. Her mouth was very small; her nostrils were mere tiny slits; and
so lazy was she that she seldom more than half opened her eyes. Both
girls were well over fourteen, and very fully developed: compared with
them, Laura was like nothing so much as a skinny young colt.
She was so grateful to them for tolerating her that she never took up a
stand of real equality with them: proud and sensitive, she was always
ready to draw back and admit their prior rights to each other; hence
the friendship did not advance to intimacy. But such as it was, it was
very comforting; she no longer needed to sit alone in recess; she could
link arms and walk the garden with complacency; and many were the
supercilious glances she now threw at Maria Morell and that clique; for
her new friends belonged socially to the best set in the school.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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