As to the =Life= part of it, that is still a little doubtful. I have not touched it enough, my experiences have not been broad enough with the other sex for me to throw over all conventions, for I know from experience and the experiences of others, that when a woman plays fast and loose she loses so much that even conventionalism sometimes seems preferable to a loosening of the bonds. My idea was to idealize the relations, have all children legitimate. While I think my part would be done all right, I doubt other men and women. Besides, I have always had an unconscious and sometimes conscious feeling of superiority to women--this has been so indefinite, however, that I do not lay too much stress on it at present. I must reiterate =Power= as the keynote. Every weak yielding .... impossibility to me at least of what I will call “The Impulsive Philosophy,” _i. e._, philosophy of being guided by emotion and sentiment, to the exclusion of reason. Reason must coordinate, if not dominate, and at least impulse must not dominate. This is my second outline, but I am going to disregard the foolish system of dates,--time is to attain anything. I realize the folly of saying at a certain date I will stop this or that I will reform in this or that. All I can do is to attempt to live up to a certain standard as fast as I have decided it to be best and to endeavor to drop off everything that pulls me down as soon as possible. =Havana, July 20, 1912.= Last day in Havana. At last my counting of each day as bringing nearer to my goal is about to end. Whether my return .... is productive of results commensurate with my expectations or not, my relief at the suspension of the agony of the struggle down here is so deep and heartfelt that I could shout for joy. I at least have several good weeks behind me, and every day in which I make the slightest progress in any direction whatever is bound to react favorably. For the present I reiterate my outline of philosophy of June 25th and July 3d. I intend to .... control pending a readjustment. At any rate for a year intend to have nothing to do with fast women--I do not say anything about intercourse without monetary consideration, but am unlikely to have much chance as I will not be looking for it. Until I am settled in ---- relaxation will be the rule. With the least worry and the line of least resistence for a month or so I should be in a much better frame of mind to accomplish anything than by keeping up this constant nervous strain. Hope and confidence mark the last day, and I count the year as a leaf in my book of experience and looking back, do not regret my year in the tropics. =--, August 1, 1912.= * * * * has a cottage for the summer.