The woman by the fire recalled the anguish of the hour of returning
life. It returned with the pain of blood returning to frost-bitten
flesh. She loved him with every quivering fibre. No crime or weakness in
the world could alter that. Her place was by his side, to champion him
through evil, to ward off temptation, to comfort him in his time of
need. Her generous nature cried aloud for him, craved to take him into
her arms and lay his head against her bosom. She scorned herself for
having turned to him a heart of stone, for letting him go broken and
desperate into the world. A touch would have changed his hell to heaven,
and she had not given it. She rose and stood for a while, this girl of
twenty, transfigured, vibrating with a great purpose—the woman of
thirty-five remembered (ah God!) the thrill of it. The flames of the
sunrise spread through her veins.
In a few minutes she was driving through the busy streets to the man’s
chambers; in a few minutes more she reached them. She mounted the
stairs. She had no need to ring, as the outer door stood open. She
entered. Called:
“Roland, are you here?”
There was no reply. She crossed the hall and went into the sitting-room.
There on the floor lay Roland Thorne with a revolver bullet through his
head.
CHAPTER II
Such were the memories that overwhelmed Clementina Wing as she sat grim
and lonely by the fire.
In the tragedy the girl Clementina perished, and from her ashes arose
the phœnix of dingy plumage who had developed into the Clementina of
to-day. As soon as she could envisage life again, she plunged into the
strenuous art-world of Paris, living solitary, morose, and heedless of
external things. The joyousness of the light-hearted crowd into which
she was thrown jarred upon her. It was like Bacchanalian revelry at a
funeral. She made no friends. Good-natured importunates she drove away
with rough usage. The pairs of young men and maidens who flaunted their
foolish happiness in places of public resort she regarded with
misanthropic eye. She hated them—at one-and-twenty—because they were
fools; because they deluded themselves into the belief that the world
was rose and blue and gold, whereas she, of her own bitter knowledge,
knew it to be drab. And from a drab world what was there more vain than
the attempt to extract colour? Beauty left her unmoved because it had no
basis in actuality. The dainty rags in which she had been accustomed to
garb herself she threw aside with contempt. Sackcloth was the only wear.
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