Ida soothed him, and argued with him, with inexhaustible patience, full
of pity for his fallen state. She was firm in her refusal to order brandy
for him, in spite of his angry protest that he was being treated like a
child, in spite of his assertion that the London physician had ordered
him to take brandy. She stayed with him for hours, during which he
alternated between rambling garrulity and sullen despondency; till at
last, worn out with the endeavour to control or to soothe him, she
withdrew to her own room, adjoining his, and left him, in the hope that,
if left to himself, he would go to bed and sleep.
Rest of any kind for herself was impossible, weighed down with anxiety
about her husband's condition, and stricken with remorse at the thought
that it was perhaps his ill-starred marriage which had in some wise
tended to bring about this ruin of a life. And yet things had gone well
with him, existence had been made very easy for him, since his marriage;
and only moral perversity would have so blighted a career which had
lain open to all the possibilities of good fortune. The initial
difficulty--poverty, which so many men have to overcome, had been
conquered for Brian within the first year of his marriage. And now six
years were gone, and he had done nothing except waste and ruin his mind
and body.
Ida left the door ajar between the two rooms, and lay down in her
clothes, ready to go to her husband's assistance if he should need help
of any kind. She had taken the key out of the door opening from his room
into the corridor, so that he would have to pass through her own room in
going out. She had done this from a vague fear that he might go roaming
about the house in the dead of the night, scaring her stepmother or the
boy by some mad violence. She made up her mind to telegraph for the
London physician early next morning, and to obtain some skilled attendant
to watch and protect her husband. She had heard of a man in such a
condition throwing himself out of a window, or cutting his throat: and
she felt that every moment was a moment of fear, until proper means had
been taken to protect Brian from his own madness.
She listened while he paced the adjoining room, muttering to himself;
once she looked in, and saw him sitting on the floor, hunting for some
imaginary objects which he saw scattered around him.
'How did I come to drop such a lot of silver?' he muttered; 'what a devil
of a nuisance not to be able to pick it up properly?'
She watched him groping about the carpet, pursuing imaginary objects,
with eager sensitive fingers, and muttering to himself angrily when they
evaded him.
By-and-by he flung himself upon his bed, but not to sleep, only to turn
restlessly from side to side, over and over again, with a weary monotony
which was even more wearisome to the watcher than to himself.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account