And yet, if the dark curtains that veiled the nursery windows at night,
if the glimmering shape of the picture-frames, if the square black sides
of the dolls' house were real, real also was the figure of her Friend,
real his arousal in her of all the memories of the old days before she
was Barbara Flint at all--real, too, his love, his care, his protection;
as real, yes, as Miss Letts's bony figure. It was all very puzzling. But
he did not come now as in the old days.
Barbara played very often in the gardens in the middle of the Square,
but because she was a timid little girl she did not make many friends.
She knew many of the other children who played there, and sometimes she
shared in their games; but her sensitive feelings were so easily hurt,
she frequently retired in tears. Every day on going into the garden she
looked about her, hoping that she would find before she left it again
some one whom it would be possible to worship. She tried on several
occasions to erect altars, but our English temperament is against
public display, and she was misunderstood.
Then, quite suddenly, as though she had sprung out of the fountain, Mary
Adams was there. Mary Adams was aged nine, and her difference from
Barbara Flint was that, whereas Barbara craved for affection, she craved
for attention: the two demands can be easily confused. Mary Adams was
the only child of an aged philosopher, Mr. Adams, who, contrary to all
that philosophy teaches, had married a young wife. The young wife,
pleased that Mary was so unlike her father, made much of her, and Mary
was delighted to be made much of. She was a little girl with flaxen
hair, blue eyes, and a fine pink-and-white colouring. In a few years'
time she will be so sure of the attention that her appearance is winning
for her that she will make no effort to secure adherents, but just now
she is not sufficiently confident--she must take trouble. She took
trouble with Barbara.
Sitting neatly upon a seat, Mary watched rude little boys throw sidelong
glances in her direction. Her long black legs were quivering with the
perception of their interest, even though her eyes were haughtily
indifferent. It was then that Barbara, with Miss Letts, an absent-minded
companion, came and sat by her side. Barbara and Mary had met at a
party--not quite on equal terms, because nine to seven is as sixty to
thirty--but they had played hide-and-seek together, and had, by chance,
hidden in the same cupboard.
The little boys had moved away, and Mary Adams's legs dropped, suddenly,
their tension.
"I'm going to a party to-night," Mary said, with a studied indifference.
Miss Letts knew of Mary's parents, and that, socially, they were "all
right"--a little more "all right," were we to be honest, than Mr. and
Mrs. Flint. She said, therefore:
"Are you, dear? That will be nice for you."
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