The Granite Monthly. Vol. II. No. 7. Apr., 1879: A New Hampshire Magazine devoted to Literature, History, and State Progress — John Shaqi
The Granite Monthly. Vol. II. No. 7. Apr., 1879: A New Hampshire Magazine devoted to Literature, History, and State ProgressVarious
History
The Granite Monthly. Vol. II. No. 7. Apr., 1879: A New Hampshire Magazine devoted to Literature, History, and State Progress
Various
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In a tiny cottage, embowered and hidden by luxuriant vines and thick,
swaying foliage, in a quaint little town, in a clime where the warmth
and glory and brightness of the midday sun is never paled and dimmed by
snow-hung clouds, where the air is heavy with the perfume of a thousand
flowers, and balmy with the luscious breath of tropical fruits; where
over the senses, and into the soul, steal a dreamy, blissful languor,
and a strange, beautiful peace, a woman in all her glorious womanhood
lay dying. And yet, death does not seem very near to that young creature
who reclines on a low couch by the open window, watching and dreaming
with a far away look in the shadowy eyes, and a beautiful smile upon the
radiant face. A man with blue eyes, full of woman’s tenderness, and hair
and beard of silvery whiteness, is standing at her side. And now the
woman, turning her large, dark eyes full upon him, speaks in a low,
musical voice that thrills the listener with a subtile sense of pleasure
and of pain. “Dearest and best of friends, I am come very near to the
place where the finite and the infinite meet, and blend together, and
are lost in one. The past is vanishing like a glad dream, so brief, and
yet so full of joy and completeness. All the unrest, and wild,
passionate longing seem very far away from me now, such a strange,
restful life has come to me. I have been thinking, perhaps it may be
that some lives gather their full measure of sunshine and beauty in a
very little time, while others are longer upon the way. And so, I have
taken my happiness in one delicious draught, and now hold life’s empty
goblet in my hands. I have been waiting for this; my fate was sealed
when, a twelve-month ago, they told me that my voice was irrecoverably
gone; for with it I had lost my art, and that to me was simply life.
Well, it is best so. It may be in that unknown beyond, whither I am
hastening, I shall find mine own again, and my soul shall be satisfied.
Today I have been living again my old life, a stranger and an alien, and
yet tenderly cared for by warm, loving hearts. I suppose they mourned
when they discovered that their wild, willful March had flown. The
remembrance of the pain I caused them has been my only regret in this
new life of mine—this wonderful, grand life—and I owe it all to you, my
mother’s friend and mine. After I am gone, you will send to my dear
foster-parents my good-bye message. I have told them all. Of my vain
struggles to find my place among the eager, restless throng in the
great, busy world, with only a wild, untrained voice and an
unconquerable will to aid me. Of my finding a friend, the dearest friend
of my angel mother, who patiently, lovingly bore with my capricious,
impetuous nature, and with lavish prodigality helped me on toward the
wished for golden goal. And then how destiny pressed close upon me, with
his black pinions o’ershadowing me, and the fiat was—“Thus far shalt
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