British -- India -- Fiction; India -- History -- British occupation, 1765-1947 -- Fiction
Lenox stood aghast at this new and unanswerable aspect of the case; at
the knowledge that, in respect of practical proof to the contrary, his
hands were tied.
"Good God! what can a man do to convince you?" he demanded on a note of
smothered passion. "Quita . . my very wife, look me in the eyes, and
answer me straight. Do you honestly believe that I have been insulting
you with mere lip-service all this while?"
He stood before her in mingled dignity and humility, trying to master
himself, to find some admissible outlet for the tumult of feeling that
was undermining the foundations of his will. But she did not answer at
once; nor did she look up.
"Think how I welcomed you a week ago," he urged.
"I do think of it. But . . since then . . ." She hesitated; and a
slow wave of colour crimsoned her neck and face, even to her forehead.
"I . . I don't know what to believe," she added very low.
The words struck away his last defences, and he caught her in his arms;
straining her to him, and kissing her almost roughly on lips and eyes
and throat. She submitted at first, in sheer amazement and
half-frightened joy at having roused him thus. Then she tried to free
herself; but he held her close, and hard.
"Do you believe now," he asked, his lips at her ear, "that I want
you . . that I love you . . with every part of me, heart, and mind, and
body?"
For all answer she leaned her head against him with a broken sob.
"Oh, Eldred," she rebuked him through her tears. "I never knew you
could behave . . like that!"
"No more did I," he answered bluntly. "Forgive me, darling, if you
can. I was a brute to lose control of myself. But you pushed me too
far. There are things no man of human passions can put up with; and if
you are going to begin by doubting my sincerity, all hope of real union
between us is at an end."
"Dear love, I promise I'll never doubt it again," she whispered
fervently. "I'll go away, and stay away . . without any fuss, if only
I can see things straight and clear; if only you won't quite shut me
out from the best part of yourself."
"I've no notion of shutting you out from any part of myself, you
precious woman. But the habit of half a lifetime is not easy to break
through; and I suppose that when two people marry they have to learn
one another bit by bit, like a new language; except in such a rare case
as the Desmonds, where love and understanding are not two things, but
one, like the man and woman themselves. There . . did you ever guess I
had thought all that about marriage!"
She laughed contentedly.
"No. How could I? And it's your thoughts I want, Eldred;--the hidden
you, that belongs to no one but me."
"Do you, though? It sounds rather wholesale! But I'll do my best."
"Come over and sit on the steps; and I'll try to tell you just how
matters stand, and how I feel about it all."
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