Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
“From the beginning Mother hated Phil. I always saw it of course, but I
used to think that it would pass when she knew Phil better—that no one
could help knowing him without loving him—and that was silly, of
course. But I waited, and always hoped that things would be better. Then
in the spring down here there was one awful Sunday, when Aunt Aggie at
supper made a scene and accused Philip of leading Henry astray or
something equally ridiculous. After that Philip wanted me to run away
with him, and I—I don’t know—but I felt that he ought to insist on it,
to make me go. He didn’t insist, and then I saw suddenly that he wasn’t
strong enough to insist on anything, and that instead of being the great
character that I’d once thought him, he was really weak and under
anyone’s influence. Well, that made me love him in a different way, but
more—much more—than I ever had before. I saw that he wanted looking
after and protecting. I suppose you’ll think that foolish of me,” she
said fiercely.
“Not at all, my dear,” said Uncle Tim, “go on.”
“Well, there was something else,” Katherine went on. “One day some time
before, when we first came to Garth, he told me that when he was in
Russia he had loved another woman. They had a child, a boy, who died. He
was afraid to tell me, because he thought that I’d think terribly of
him.
“But what did it matter, when he’d given her up and left her? Only this
mattered—that I couldn’t forget her. I wasn’t jealous, but I was
curious—terribly. I asked him questions, I wanted to see her as she
was—it was so strange to me that there should be that woman, still
living somewhere, who knew more, much more, about Phil than I did. Then
the more questions I asked him about her the more he thought of her and
of Russia, so that at last he asked me not to speak of her. But then she
seemed to come between us, because we both thought of her, and I used to
wonder whether he wanted to go back to her, and _he_ wondered whether,
after all, I was jealous about her. Then things got worse with everyone.
I felt as though everyone was against us. After the Faunder wedding
Henry and Phil had a quarrel, and Henry behaved like a baby.
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