It is probable that neither of them had ever seriously contemplated the
possibility of failure for one and not for the other. Neither had ever
looked onward, as it were, into life to see himself there without the
other. The life that they both anticipated was that life on the ocean
wave, of which home-keeping poets sing so eloquently; and it had always
been vaguely taken for granted that no great difference in rank or
success could sever them. Fitz was too simple-minded, too honest to
himself, to look for great honours in his country's service. He
mistrusted himself. Luke mistrusted Providence.
Such was the difference between these two boys--the thin end of a wedge
of years which, spreading out in after days, turned each life into a
path of its own, sending each man inexorably on his separate way.
These two boys were almost alone in the world. Their mother had died
in giving them birth. Their father, an old man when he married,
reached his allotted span when his sons first donned Her Majesty's
brass buttons, and quietly went to keep his watch below. Discipline had
been his guiding star through life, and when Death called him he obeyed
without a murmur, trusting confidently to the Naval Department in the
first place, and the good God in the second, to look after his boys.
That the late Admiral FitzHenry had sorely misplaced his confidence in
the first instance was a fact which the two boys were now called upon
to face alone in their youthful ignorance of the world. Fitz was
uneasily conscious of a feeling of helplessness, as if some
all-powerful protector had suddenly been withdrawn. Their two lives
had been pre-committed to the parental care of their country, and now
it almost took their breath away to realise that Luke had no such
protector.
His was the pride that depreciates self. During the last twenty-four
hours Fitz had heard him boast of his failure, holding it up with a
singularly triumphant sneer, as if he had always distrusted his destiny
and took a certain pleasure in verifying his own prognostications.
There are some men who find a satisfaction in bad luck which good
fortune could never afford them.
In a large house in Grosvenor Gardens two ladies were at that same
moment speaking of the FitzHenrys. It was quite easy to see that the
smaller lady of the two was the mistress of the house, as also of that
vague abstract called the situation. She sat in the most comfortable
chair, which was, by the way, considerably too spacious for her, and
there was a certain aggressive sense of possession about her attitude
and manner.
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