Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
As for Robert and his mistress, they appeared to
have no recollection of the quarrel which had been raging between them a
few minutes earlier, or of my having been a witness of it. They made no
allusion to it, sought no excuse for it any more than for the contrast
with it which their present conduct formed. By dint of drinking
champagne with them, I began to feel a little of the intoxication that
used to come over me at Rivebelle, though probably not quite the same.
Not only every kind of intoxication, from that which the sun or
travelling gives us to that which we get from exhaustion or wine, but
every degree of intoxication—and each must have a different figure, like
the numbers of fathoms on a chart—lays bare in us exactly at the depth
to which it reaches a different kind of man. The room which Saint-Loup
had taken was small, but the mirror which was its sole ornament was of
such a kind that it seemed to reflect thirty others in an endless vista;
and the electric bulb placed at the top of the frame must at night, when
the light was on, followed by the procession of thirty flashes similar
to its own, give to the drinker, even when alone, the idea that the
surrounding space was multiplying itself simultaneously with his
sensations heightened by intoxication, and that, shut up by himself in
this little cell, he was reigning nevertheless over something far more
extensive in its indefinite luminous curve than a passage in the Jardin
de Paris. Being then myself at this moment the said drinker, suddenly,
looking for him in the glass, I caught sight of him, hideous, a
stranger, who was staring at me. The joy of intoxication was stronger
than my disgust; from gaiety or bravado I smiled at him, and
simultaneously he smiled back at me. And I felt myself so much under the
ephemeral and potent sway of the minute in which our sensations are so
strong, that I am not sure whether my sole regret was not at the thought
that this hideous self of whom I had just caught sight in the glass was
perhaps there for the last time on earth, and that I should never meet
the stranger again in the whole course of my life.
Robert was annoyed only because I was not being more brilliant before
his mistress.
“What about that fellow you met this morning, who combines snobbery with
astronomy; tell her about him, I’ve forgotten the story,” and he watched
her furtively.
“But, my dear boy, there’s nothing more than what you’ve just said.”
“What a bore you are. Then tell her about Françoise in the
Champs-Elysées. She’ll enjoy that.”
“Oh, do! Bobby is always talking about Françoise.” And taking Saint-Loup
by the chin, she repeated, for want of anything more original, drawing
the said chin nearer to the light: “Hallo, you!”
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