Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
watch, wrinkled his brows petulantly on seeing that he was five minutes
late, and while he bade us good-bye rang for his other coat to be
brought to him at once. I waited until my grandmother had left the room,
closed the door and asked him to tell me the truth.
“There is not the slightest hope,” he informed me. “It is a stroke
brought on by uraemia. In itself, uraemia is not necessarily fatal, but
this case seems to me desperate. I need not tell you that I hope I am
mistaken. Anyhow, you have Cottard, you’re in excellent hands. Excuse
me,” he broke off as a maid came into the room with his coat over her
arm. “I told you, I’m dining with the Minister of Commerce, and I have a
call to pay first. Ah! Life is not all a bed of roses, as one is apt to
think at your age.”
And he graciously offered me his hand. I had shut the door behind me,
and a footman was shewing us into the hall when we heard a loud shout of
rage. The maid had forgotten to cut and hem the buttonhole for the
decorations. This would take another ten minutes. The Professor
continued to storm while I stood on the landing gazing at a grandmother
for whom there was not the slightest hope. Each of us is indeed alone.
We started for home.
The sun was sinking, it burnished an interminable wall along which our
cab had to pass before reaching the street in which we lived, a wall
against which the shadow cast by the setting sun of horse and carriage
stood out in black on a ruddy background, like a funeral car on some
Pompeian terra-cotta. At length we arrived at the house. I made the
invalid sit at the foot of the staircase in the hall, and went up to
warn my mother. I told her that my grandmother had come home feeling
slightly unwell, after an attack of giddiness. As soon as I began to
speak, my mother’s face was convulsed by the paroxysm of a despair which
was yet already so resigned that I realised that for many years she had
been holding herself quietly in readiness for an uncalendared but final
day. She asked me no question; it seemed that, just as malevolence likes
to exaggerate the sufferings of other people, so in her devotion she
would not admit that her mother was seriously ill, especially with a
disease which might affect the brain. Mamma shuddered, her eyes wept
without tears, she ran to give orders for the doctor to be fetched at
once; but when Françoise asked who was ill she could not reply, her
voice stuck in her throat. She came running downstairs with me,
struggling to banish from her face the sob that contracted it. My
grandmother was waiting below on the sofa in the hall, but, as soon as
she heard us coming, drew herself together, stood up, and waved her hand
cheerfully at Mamma. I had partially wrapped her head in a white lace
shawl, telling her that it was so that she should not catch cold on the
stairs. I had hoped that my mother would not notice the change in her
face, the distortion of her mouth; my precaution proved unnecessary; my
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