Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
If I wished to go out or to come in without taking the lift or being
seen from the main staircase, a smaller private staircase, no longer in
use, offered me its steps so skilfully arranged, one close above
another, that there seemed to exist in their gradation a perfect
proportion of the same kind as those which, in colours, scents, savours,
often arouse in us a peculiar, sensuous pleasure. But the pleasure to be
found in going up and downstairs I had had to come here to learn, as
once before to a health resort in the Alps to find that the act—as a
rule not noticed—of drawing breath could be a perpetual delight. I
received that dispensation from effort which is granted to us only by
the things to which long use has accustomed us, when I set my feet for
the first time on those steps, familiar before ever I knew them, as if
they possessed, deposited on them, perhaps, embodied in them by the
masters of long ago whom they used to welcome every day, the prospective
charm of habits which I had not yet contracted and which indeed could
only grow weaker once they had become my own. I looked into a room; the
double doors closed themselves behind me, the hangings let in a silence
in which I felt myself invested with a sort of exhilarating royalty; a
marble mantelpiece with ornaments of wrought brass—of which one would
have been wrong to think that its sole idea was to represent the art of
the Directory—offered me a fire, and a little easy chair on short legs
helped me to warm myself as comfortably as if I had been sitting on the
hearthrug. The walls held the room in a close embrace, separating it
from the rest of the world and, to let in, to enclose what made it
complete, parted to make way for the bookcase, reserved a place for the
bed, on either side of which a column airily upheld the raised ceiling
of the alcove. And the room was prolonged in depth by two closets as
large as itself, the latter of which had hanging from its wall, to scent
the occasion on which one had recourse to it, a voluptuous rosary of
orris-roots; the doors, if I left them open when I withdrew into this
innermost retreat, were not content with tripling its dimensions without
its ceasing to be well-proportioned, and not only allowed my eyes to
enjoy the delights of extension after those of concentration, but added
further to the pleasure of my solitude, which, while still inviolable,
was no longer shut in, the sense of liberty. This closet looked out upon
a courtyard, a fair solitary stranger whom I was glad to have for a
neighbour when next morning my eyes fell on her, a captive between her
high walls in which no other window opened, with nothing but two
yellowing trees which were enough, to give a pinkish softness to the
pure sky above.
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