Great Britain. Royal Navy -- Fiction; Seafaring life -- Fiction
“_Children of Capital; Children of Labour. They suffer in the
transition. They pay for the bitter triumphs. They are weighed down
by the pride. If the young men could but learn that gain is without
profit they would know that force is barren. When all the world has
that knowledge_”....
He tore up the envelope.
“But that’s the coming of the Kingdom,” he thought. Did he himself
believe, with absolute belief, that force was barren? It was easier to
compromise, to risk nothing, to wait; safer to go slowly. Everything
would right itself in time. That was a comfortable thought--but a lie.
He shifted his feet on the carpet, and, turning, peered beyond the soft
blur of his reading-lamp into the dark room. And a phrase came upon
him suddenly, like galloping hoofs ringing close in the dark against a
frost-bit road. Its strange rhythm startled him as if it had been the
clatter of horses riding him down.
“... Finally to beat down Satan under our feet ... finally to beat down
Satan under our feet....”
CHAPTER XXI
THE CURRENCY
I
It happened that his mother’s reply, reaching the _Pathshire_ in the
middle of October, came to John soon after he had learnt of what he
believed to be his irretrievable loss of Margaret. With her loss his
need for her became more instant. While she had belonged to none other,
and his own future had been at least not closed to dreams, he had
hesitated to admit, even to himself, that he loved her. The lesson of
the complete insignificance of midshipmen, which the Service teaches
with such energy and eagerness, had been so deeply impressed upon him
that, even in a matter so personal as this, he had been unable to
forget it. “For drill purposes,” as the Service says, snotties did not
love--they had women; and it was indeed ridiculous in one whose pay
was twelve-and-threepence a week to contemplate any love that might
lead to marriage. Moreover, John had felt that Time was on his side,
and Chance as yet not a declared enemy. He had dreamed of a swift end
to his snotty days, of expanding fortune, of reinforced hope. He had
wished to justify his claim to Margaret before making it.
It had seemed enough that she should stand for the imaginative, the
creative, the permanent--a contrast to that professional side of his
life which he took to be destructive and ephemeral. But now all these
things were changed. By his mother’s letter it had been made clear
that there would be no expansion of fortune, no reinforcement of hope,
no breaking free into a new world. Margaret ceased to represent the
possibly attainable.
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