Great Britain. Royal Navy -- Fiction; Seafaring life -- Fiction
Slowly this extraordinary concentration of his mind produced its
effect upon her. First she became conscious of having, in his view,
lost individuality, of having been relegated somehow to the position
of an instrument. Her will was to revolt against that, but revolt
was contrary to her inclination. She found a certain pleasure in the
strength of the current that was bearing her away, even while she
feared it. She said something; he did not answer. She repeated it; and
from his silence understood that his mind would not receive her words.
It was as if a wave, sweeping over her head and robbing her voice of
its effect, had roused her to resistance. His arm had grown firmer
about her. Her feet were scarce touching the ground. She wanted breath
and foothold. She became frightened, active, determined to break free.
“Why are you dancing so fast?” was all she contrived to say.
But he heard, and looked down to drink in her powerlessness, to exult
in his own power, to strengthen his grip again. He could not talk. His
imagination was running on and on, dragging him with it. His thoughts,
which had no traceable sequence, were presenting to him pictures of
such vividness that he screwed up his eyes as if he might physically
see them.
“I am tired,” Margaret said, shrinking into the conventional. “Shall
we stop?” Then, a moment later, with a flash of determination that
compelled his attention: “I want to stop.”
He let her go suddenly--too suddenly. Her eyes were raised
questioningly for an instant, and, as he met them, were abruptly turned
away. He took her out of the crowd. He wanted to get beyond the range
of the many eyes that he imagined were turned upon him. She sat down
where he told her to sit.
“Listen,” he said. “I told you just now that I was sorry to leave
England. I want to tell you why. There’s so much to do here--so
much danger to be warded off. And this going away is”--he paused
feelingly--“is somehow shirking the fight. My father and I don’t agree
on all points. I should like to see Ordith’s run differently--the
position of our labour improved. I am on their side.... They know
it.... Further, the whole attitude of armament firms must be changed.
As matters stand their ambitions are warlike; their influence on
political action is--well, you can understand that. And my chance to
change all this is unique. No other young man has my opportunities. But
I stand alone, absolutely alone. I----”
“But why are you telling this to me?”
“Because--oh, don’t you feel as I do? Don’t you----”
“But why are you telling it to me _now_?”
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