Betrothal -- Fiction; Courtship -- Fiction; Middle West -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
The judge sat on the veranda all the afternoon. He scarcely moved, and
never once did he pick up the Sunday paper. Now and then he bowed, in
his dignified way, to some acquaintance passing in the street. The
Chenowiths came out on to their front porch, evidently hot and stupefied
from their Sunday afternoon naps and ready now for the cool refreshment
of the evening breeze they could usually rely on in Macochee with the
coming of the evening. The judge bowed to them, and he tried to put into
his bow an indolent unconcern, lest the Chenowiths should penetrate his
manner and discover the trouble that lay on his heart. The Chenowiths
had gone to the end of their porch, and the judge could hear their
laughter. He thought it strange and unnatural that any one should laugh.
He decided that he would review this whole affair of Lavinia's love
calmly and judicially. He went back to the beginning of Marley's visit,
trying to see wherein he himself had been in the wrong, then he went
over the hot scene with Lavinia. He could not recover from his surprise
at this; that Lavinia, who was usually so gentle, so mild, so unselfish,
should have given way to such anger was incomprehensible. He had always
said that she had her mother's disposition. He could see her, all the
time, distinctly, as she had stood there, in a rage he had never known
her to indulge before, and yet, as he looked at the image of her that
was in his mind, and recalled certain expressions, certain attitudes,
certain tones of voice, it came over him all at once that she was
exactly as her mother had been at her age, though he could not reconcile
Lavinia's mood with the resemblance. Then he went back to his own days
of courtship, with their emotions, their uncertainties, their doubts and
illusions. They seemed a long way off.
He was trying to think calmly and logically, but he found that he could
not then control his mind, for suddenly he saw Lavinia as a little girl,
with her mother kneeling before her, shaking out and straightening her
starched frock. And with this thought came the revelation, sudden,
irresistible, that Lavinia was no longer a child as, with the habit of
the happy years, he had thought of her, up to that very afternoon, in
fact, until an hour ago, and he bowed before the changes that hour had
wrought. He accepted the conviction now that he himself had grown old.
He forgot his purpose to probe to its first cause this unhappiness that
had come to him; he saw that what he mourned was the loss of a child,
the loss of his own youth.
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