Yet, under the old man's fluctuating tuition, he actually began the
Serenade within twenty-four hours. “_Deh vieni alla finestra_,” French
Janin pronounced. “_Deh vieni_----” Harry Baggs struggled after him. His
brow grew wet with the intensity of his effort; his tongue, it seemed to
him, would never accomplish the desired syllables.
Janin made a determined effort to live without his drug; the abstinence
emphasized his fragility and he was cold, even in the heart of the long
sunny day; but the effort stayed him with a flickering vitality, bred
visions, renewed hopes of the future. He repeated the names of places,
opera houses--the San Carlo, in Naples; the Scala--unknown to Harry
Baggs, but which came to him with a strange vividness. The learning of
the Serenade progressed slowly; French Janin forgot whole phrases, some
of which returned to memory; one entire line he was forced to supply
from imagination.
At last the boy could sing it with a degree of intelligence; Janin
translated and reconstructed the scene, the characters.
“You ought to have some good clothes,” he told Harry Baggs; he spoke
again of the necessity of a diamond stud.
“Well, I haven't,” the other stated shortly. “They'll have to listen to
me without looking.”
He borrowed a rusted razor and subjected himself to the pain of an
awkward shaving; then inadequately washed his sole shirt and looped the
frayed collar with a nondescript tie.
The night was immaculate; the moon, past the full, cast long segments of
light and shadow across the countryside. Harry Baggs drew a deep breath:
“We might as well go.”
French Janin objected; he wasn't ready; he wasn't quite sure of what he
was going to say. Then:
“I haven't anything to show. Perhaps they will laugh at me--at Janin, of
the Opéra Comique. I couldn't allow that.”
“I'm going to sing,” the boy reminded him; “if it's any good they won't
laugh. If what you say's right they'll have to believe you.”
“I feel bad to-night, too, in my legs.”
“Get your violin.”
A fresh difficulty arose: French Janin positively refused to play on his
present instrument before a critical audience.
“It's as thin as a cat,” he protested. “Do you want me to make a show of
myself?”
“All right; I'll sing alone. Come on!”
Janin's legs were uncertain; he stumbled over the path to the road and
stopped at the fence. He expressed fresh doubts, the hesitation of old
age; but Harry Baggs silenced him, forced him on. A cold fear possessed
the boy, which he resolutely suppressed: if Janin were wrong, his voice
worthless, if they laughed, he was done. Opportunity, he felt, would
never return. With his voice scorned, no impetus remained; he had no
other interest in life, no other power that could subdue the slight
inward flaw.
He saw this in a vivid flash of self-knowledge.... If he couldn't sing
he would go down, lower than Janin; perhaps sink to the level of Dake.
“Come on!” he repeated grimly, assisting his companion over the luminous
white road.
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