Then he remembered the bathroom and ran through several chairs, a
table, and three people, and into the bathroom. He slammed the door and
leaned against it and let out a long relieved breath.
He was taking off his shorts when the bathroom walls and the ceiling
came alive.
What had been labeled "Boy's Room" down in the cocktail lounge was
being projected into the bathroom of room 2004.
It wasn't false modesty that prompted Kane's moan. It wasn't any form
of prudishness that moved Kane to clutch his undershorts to his body
and leap into the shower stall.
It was a panicky realization of the absolutely involuntary nature of
the way things were. Strangers, with friendly smiles, everywhere around
him all the time, and he, Larry Kane, had nothing--_absolutely nothing
to say about it_.
The shower stall with the pulled curtain was no refuge either. There
was a superimposed sink in there on the wall with a phantom shape using
an electric razor.
Phil and Ben were leaning through the shower curtain. They weren't
there for anything specific. They were just there, chatting, smiling,
bantering.
Others came in and out of the "Boy's Room" of the cocktail lounge.
Everyone said hello, or directed some sort of friendly comment casually
at Kane as though superimposed washrooms were the quintessence of
social normalcy. And, Kane thought pushing hard at panic, they probably
were.
Phil and Ben were there for no other reason than to keep Kane company.
To help him. He could see that. No matter how tortured he seemed, their
attitude remained that of beneficence. The trouble was all his, and
they gave no indication of seeing his side of anything.
Evidently, to them, being alone was the worst thing that could happen
to anybody. If he wanted to be alone then he was wrong, he was sick, he
was put in a special room. A single. But they wouldn't go away.
He managed to turn on the shower, and he turned his face up to the icy
water and closed his eyes and imagined he was back in blessed isolation
in the study of the observatory on the Moon. But it was a long long way
back to the Moon.
It worked both ways. He could see and hear them. They could hear and
see him too, but he determined to do his best to ignore them. The idea
of social amenities no longer bothered Kane. Being impolite was an
absurdity. Social decency was a mutual thing, and these people weren't
considering his rights at all.
He finished his shower and draped the towel around his waist and went
back out into the closet they had given him. He walked toward the bed,
sidestepping people, chairs, tables still unable to realize fully that
these things weren't really here.
The jukebox got louder. A couple danced through him. Suddenly, Kane
stood shivering, a raw panic taking hold. Control fled before the
rising jukebox clangor, the laughter, the waving and shouting and
hideous unwelcome demons of camaraderie.
He felt himself wildly waving his arms about and shouting at the walls.
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