France -- Fiction; French fiction -- Translations into English; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Nobility -- France -- Fiction
“I was thinking of many things,” she answered. “Looking at the flowers
made for us, I wondered whom we were made for; who are they who look at
us? You are wise, and I can tell you what I think; you know so much you
can explain all. I feel a sort of force within me that wants to exercise
itself; I struggle against something. When the sky is gray I am half
content; I am sad, but I am calm. When the day is fine, and the flowers
smell sweet, and I sit on my bench down there among the jasmine and
honeysuckles, something rises in me, like waves which beat against my
stillness. Ideas come into my mind which shake me, and fly away like
those birds before the windows; I cannot hold them. Well, when I have
made a bouquet in which the colors blend like tapestry, and the red
contrasts with white, and the greens and the browns cross each other,
when all seems so abundant, the breeze so playful, the flowers so many
that their fragrance mingles and their buds interlace,--well, then I am
happy, for I see what is passing in me. At church when the organ plays
and the clergy respond, there are two distinct songs speaking to each
other,--the human voice and the music. Well, then, too, I am happy;
that harmony echoes in my breast. I pray with a pleasure which stirs my
blood.”
While listening to his daughter, Beauvouloir examined her with sagacious
eyes; those eyes seemed almost stupid from the force of his rushing
thoughts, as the water of a cascade seems motionless. He raised the veil
of flesh which hid the secret springs by which the soul reacts upon
the body; he studied the diverse symptoms which his long experience had
noted in persons committed to his care, and he compared them with those
contained in this frail body, the bones of which frightened him by their
delicacy, as the milk-white skin alarmed him by its want of substance.
He tried to bring the teachings of his science to bear upon the future
of that angelic child, and he was dizzy in so doing, as though he stood
upon the verge of an abyss; the too vibrant voice, the too slender bosom
of the young girl filled him with dread, and he questioned himself after
questioning her.
“You suffer here!” he cried at last, driven by a last thought which
summed up his whole meditation.
She bent her head gently.
“By God’s grace!” said the old man, with a sigh, “I will take you to the
Chateau d’Herouville, and there you shall take sea-baths to strengthen
you.”
“Is that true, father? You are not laughing at your little Gabrielle? I
have so longed to see the castle, and the men-at-arms, and the captains
of monseigneur.”
“Yes, my daughter, you shall really go there. Your nurse and Jean shall
accompany you.”
“Soon?”
“To-morrow,” said the old man, hurrying into the garden to hide his
agitation from his mother and his child.
“God is my witness,” he cried to himself, “that no ambitious
thought impels me. My daughter to save, poor little Etienne to make
happy,--those are my only motives.”
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