said, ‘you admit that these reports are true—you admit that you are
afraid to face society in the character of my wife.’ What could I
answer? There was no contradicting him—he was plainly right: if I
persisted in my refusal, the utter destruction of my reputation would
be the result. I consented to let the wedding take place as we had
arranged it—and left him. The night has passed. I am here, with my
fixed conviction—that innocent woman is ordained to have a fatal
influence over my life. I am here with my one question to put, to the
one man who can answer it. For the last time, sir, what am I—a demon
who has seen the avenging angel? or only a poor mad woman, misled by
the delusion of a deranged mind?”
Doctor Wybrow rose from his chair, determined to close the interview.
He was strongly and painfully impressed by what he had heard. The
longer he had listened to her, the more irresistibly the conviction of
the woman’s wickedness had forced itself on him. He tried vainly to
think of her as a person to be pitied—a person with a morbidly
sensitive imagination, conscious of the capacities for evil which lie
dormant in us all, and striving earnestly to open her heart to the
counter-influence of her own better nature; the effort was beyond him.
A perverse instinct in him said, as if in words, Beware how you believe
in her!
“I have already given you my opinion,” he said. “There is no sign of
your intellect being deranged, or being likely to be deranged, that
medical science can discover—as _I_ understand it. As for the
impressions you have confided to me, I can only say that yours is a
case (as I venture to think) for spiritual rather than for medical
advice. Of one thing be assured: what you have said to me in this room
shall not pass out of it. Your confession is safe in my keeping.”
She heard him, with a certain dogged resignation, to the end.
“Is that all?” she asked.
“That is all,” he answered.
She put a little paper packet of money on the table. “Thank you, sir.
There is your fee.”
With those words she rose. Her wild black eyes looked upward, with an
expression of despair so defiant and so horrible in its silent agony
that the Doctor turned away his head, unable to endure the sight of it.
The bare idea of taking anything from her—not money only, but anything
even that she had touched—suddenly revolted him. Still without looking
at her, he said, “Take it back; I don’t want my fee.”
She neither heeded nor heard him. Still looking upward, she said slowly
to herself, “Let the end come. I have done with the struggle: I
submit.”
She drew her veil over her face, bowed to the Doctor, and left the
room.
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