The image of Henry Westwick was the presiding image in her memory now.
Recalling the minutest incidents and details of the evening, she could
think of nothing which presented him under other than a favourable and
interesting aspect. She smiled to herself softly, her colour rose by
fine gradations, as she felt the full luxury of dwelling on the perfect
truth and modesty of his devotion to her. Was the depression of spirits
from which she had suffered so persistently on her travels
attributable, by any chance, to their long separation from each
other—embittered perhaps by her own vain regret when she remembered her
harsh reception of him in Paris? Suddenly conscious of this bold
question, and of the self-abandonment which it implied, she returned
mechanically to her book, distrusting the unrestrained liberty of her
own thoughts. What lurking temptations to forbidden tenderness find
their hiding-places in a woman’s dressing-gown, when she is alone in
her room at night! With her heart in the tomb of the dead Montbarry,
could Agnes even think of another man, and think of love? How shameful!
how unworthy of her! For the second time, she tried to interest herself
in the guide-book—and once more she tried in vain. Throwing the book
aside, she turned desperately to the one resource that was left, to her
luggage—resolved to fatigue herself without mercy, until she was weary
enough and sleepy enough to find a safe refuge in bed.
For some little time, she persisted in the monotonous occupation of
transferring her clothes from her trunk to the wardrobe. The large
clock in the hall, striking mid-night, reminded her that it was getting
late. She sat down for a moment in an arm-chair by the bedside, to
rest.
The silence in the house now caught her attention, and held it—held it
disagreeably. Was everybody in bed and asleep but herself? Surely it
was time for her to follow the general example? With a certain
irritable nervous haste, she rose again and undressed herself. “I have
lost two hours of rest,” she thought, frowning at the reflection of
herself in the glass, as she arranged her hair for the night. “I shall
be good for nothing to-morrow!”
She lit the night-light, and extinguished the candles—with one
exception, which she removed to a little table, placed on the side of
the bed opposite to the side occupied by the arm-chair. Having put her
travelling-box of matches and the guide-book near the candle, in case
she might be sleepless and might want to read, she blew out the light,
and laid her head on the pillow.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account