When the time came they would leave together openly, and with a certain
measured dignity, but till then they would be friends, merely friends,
not lovers.
But Mrs. Robinson had not considered it essential, or indeed desirable,
that there should be no meeting in the interval, and she had seen no
reason why her friend's schemes should not have what slender help was
possible from the exercise of her woman's wits. Hence she had planned
the meeting with David Winfrith; hence she had asked Downing to become
one of her guests at Monk's Eype, and after some demur he had
reluctantly obeyed.
During the days that had immediately followed his coming, days which saw
Downing avoiding rather than seeking his hostess's presence, Penelope
often pondered over the words, the first he had uttered when they had
found themselves alone: 'I feel like a thief--nay, like a
murderer--here!' Extravagant, foolish words, uttered by one whose
restraint and wisdom had held for her from the first a curious
fascination.
Alas! She knew now how ill-advised she had been to bring him to Monk's
Eype, to place him in sharp juxtaposition with her mother, with her
cousin Wantley, even with such a girl as Cecily Wake. The very
simplicity of the life led by Mrs. Robinson's little circle of
unworldly, simple-minded guests made intimate talk between herself and
Downing difficult, the more so that feminine instinct kept few her
visits to the Beach Room.
Now and again, however, a softened glance from the powerful lined face,
a muttered word expressive of deep measureless feeling, the feel of his
hand grasping hers, would suddenly seem to prove that everything was
indeed as she wished it to be between them, and for a few hours she
would feel, if not content, at least at peace.
But even then there was always the haunting thought that some extraneous
circumstance--sometimes she wondered if it could have been any foolish,
careless word said by Wantley--had modified the close intimacy of their
relation.
II
There had been a week of this strain and strange chill between them,
when one night Penelope, feeling intolerably sore and full of vague
misgivings, suddenly determined to seek Downing out in the Beach Room.
It fell about in this wise. After the quiet evening had at last come to
an end, she went upstairs with Cecily and old Miss Wake, dismissed
Motey, and then returned to the studio, hoping he would come to her
there.
But an hour wore itself away, and he did not come.
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