Presently the table near her was empty, and she began to breathe more
naturally. She pondered so deeply that for a long time the room was
forgotten, and the moving crowd shifted about her unseen. Then
abstractedly she rose, and went slowly out to the waiting car. She
carried a heart of lead.
"I've kept you waiting, Martin?"
Martin merely touched his hat. It was four o'clock.
And so Rachael found herself facing an unbelievable situation. To love,
and to know herself unloved, was a cold, dull misery that clung like a
weight to her heart. Her thoughts stumbled in a close, hot fog; from
sheer weariness she abandoned them again and again.
She had never been a reasonable woman, but she forced herself to be
reasonable now. Logic and philosophy had never been her natural
defences, but she brought logic and philosophy to bear upon this
hideous circumstance. She did not waste time and tears upon a futile
"Why?" It was too late now to question; the fact spoke for itself.
Warren's senses were wrapped in the charms of another woman. His own
devoted and still young and beautiful wife was not the first devoted
and young and beautiful woman to have her claim displaced.
For days after the episode in the Waldorf lunch-room she moved like a
conspirator, watching, thinking. Warren had never seemed more
considerate of her happiness, more satisfied with life. He was full of
agreeable chatter at breakfast, interested in her plans, amused at the
boys. He did not come home for luncheon, but usually ran up the steps
at five o'clock, and was reading or dressing when Rachael wandered into
his room to greet him after the day. He never kissed her now, or
touched her hand even by chance; she was reminded, in his general
aspect, of those occasions when the delicious Derry wandered out from
the nursery, evading the nap which was his duty, but full of the airy
conversation and small endearments that only a child on sufferance
knows.
Rachael tried in vain to understand the affair; what evil genius
possessed Warren; what possessed Magsie? She tried to think kindly of
Magsie; poor child, she had had no ugly intention, she was simply
spoiled, simply an egotist undeveloped in brain and soul!
But--Warren! Well, Warren's soft, simple heart had been touched by all
that endearing kittenish confidence, by Magsie's belief that he was the
richest and cleverest and most powerful of men.
So they were meeting for lunch, for tea--where else? What did they talk
about, what did they plan or hope or expect? Through all her hot
impatience Rachael believed that she could trust them both, in the
graver sense. Warren was as unlikely to take advantage of Magsie's
youthful innocence as Magsie was to definitely commit herself to a
reckless course.
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