She began to understand his nature as she had not understood it in all
these years. Bits of his mother's brief comment upon him came back to
her; uncomprehensible when she first heard them, they were curiously
illuminating now. He had been a naturally good boy, awkward, silent,
conscientious; turning toward integrity as normally as many of his
companions turned toward vice. Despite his natural shyness, his
diffidence of manner, he had been strong himself and had scorned
weakness in anyone; upright, he needed little guiding. The praise of
servants and of his mother's friends had been quite frankly his; even
his severe mother and father had been able to find little fault in the
boy. But they had early learned that when a minor correction was
demanded by their first-born's character, it was almost impossible to
effect it. His standard of behavior was high, fortunately, for it was
also unalterable. There was no hope of their grafting upon his
conscience any new roots. James knew right from wrong with infallible
instinct; he was not often wrong, but when he was, no outside criticism
affected him. As a baby, he would defend his rare misdeeds, as a boy,
he was never thrashed, because there was always some good reason for
what he did. He had been misinformed, he certainly understood the other
fellows to say this; he certainly never heard the teacher forbid that;
handsome, reasonable, self-respecting, he won approval on all sides,
and because of this mysterious predisposition toward what was right and
just, came safely to the years when he was his own master and could
live unchallenged by the high moral standard he set himself.
Some of this Rachael began to perceive. It was a key to his conduct
now. He respected Magsie, he admired her; there was no reason why he
should not indulge his admiration. No unspoken criticism from his wife
could affect him, because he had seen the whole situation clearly and
had decided what was seemly and safe in the matter. Criticism only
brought a resentful, dull red color to Warren Gregory's face, and
confirmed him more stubbornly in the course he was pursuing. He could
even enjoy a certain martyr-like satisfaction under undeserved censure,
all censure being equally incomprehensible and undeserved. Rachael had
once seen in this quality a certain godlike supremacy, a bigness, and
splendidness of vision that rose above the ordinary standards of
ordinary men; now it filled her with uneasiness.
"Well," she thought, with a certain desperate philosophy, "in a certain
number of months or years this will all be over, and I must simply
endure it until that time comes. Life is full of trouble, anyway!"
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