"When I came to America I thought of you, and I listened to what
everyone said of you. You had a splendid boy, named for Greg, and then
another boy; you were richer and happier and more admired than ever!
And Rachael--I know you'll forgive me--you were so much FINER than
ever--when I met you I saw that. I couldn't dislike you, I couldn't do
anything but admire, with all the others. I remember at Leila's
wedding, when you wore dark blue and furs, and you looked so lovely!
And then I met Greg again. And truly, truly, Rachael, I never dreamed
of this then!"
"Dreamed of what?" Rachael said with dry lips. The girl's voice, the
darkening room, the dull, fluttering flames of the dying fire, seemed
all like some oppressive dream.
"Dreamed--" Magsie's voice sank. Her eyes closed, she put one hand over
her heart, and pressed it there. "Then came my plan to go on the
stage," she said, taking up her story, "and one day, when I was
especially blue, I met Greg. We had tea together. I've never forgotten
one instant of that day! He tried to telephone you, but couldn't get
you; we just talked like any friends. But he promised to help me, he
was so interested, and I was homesick for Paris, and ready to die in
this awful city! After that you gave me a dinner, and then we had
theatricals, and then Bowman placed me, and I had to go on the road.
But I saw Greg two or three times, and one day--one day last
winter"--again her voice faltered, as if she found the memories too
poignant for speech--"we drove in the Park," she said dreamily; "and
then Greg saw how it was."
Rachael sat silent, stunned.
"Oh, Rachael," the girl said passionately. "Don't think I didn't fight
it! I thought of you, I tried to think for us all. I said we would
never see each other again, and I went away--you know that! For months
after that day in the Park we hardly saw each other. And then, last
summer, we met again. And he talked to me so wonderfully, Rachael,
about making the best of it, about being good friends anyway--and I've
lived on that! But I can't live on that forever, Rachael."
"You've been seeing each other?" Rachael asked stupidly.
"Oh, every day! At tea, you know, or sometimes especially before you
came back, at dinner. And, Rachael, nobody will ever know what it's
done for me! Greg's managed all my business, and whenever I was utterly
discouraged and tired he had the kindest way of saying: 'Never mind,
Magsie, I'm tired and discouraged, too!'" Magsie's face glowed happily
at the memory of it. "I know I'm not worthy of Greg's friendship," she
said eagerly. "And all the time I've thought of you, Rachael, as having
the first right, as being far, far above me in everything! But--I'm
telling you everything, you see--" Magsie interrupted herself to
explain.
"Go on!" Rachael urged, clearing her throat.
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