"Well, it's not much. But a week or two ago Greg was talking to me
about your being eager to get the boys into the country early this
year. He looked awfully tired that afternoon, and he said that he
thought he would close this house, and live at the club this summer,
and he said 'That means you have a dinner date every night, Magsie!'
And suddenly, Rachael--I don't know what came over me, but I burst out
crying"--Magsie's eyes filled now as she thought of it--"and I said,
'Oh, Greg, we need each other! Why can't we belong to each other! You
love me and I love you; why can't we give up our work and the city and
everything else, and just be happy!'"
"And what did--Warren say?" Rachael asked in a whisper.
"Oh, Rachael! That's what I've been remembering ever since!" Magsie
said. "That's what made me want to come to you; I KNEW you would
understand! You're so good; you want people to be happy," said Magsie,
fighting tears again and trying to smile. "You have everything: your
sons, your position, your beauty--everything! I'm--I'm different from
some women, Rachael. I can't just run away with him. There is an
honorable and a right way to do it, and I want to ask you if you'll let
us take that way!"
"An honorable way?" Rachael echoed in an unnatural voice.
"Well--" Magsie widened innocent eyes. "Nobody has ever blamed YOU for
taking it, Rachael!" she said simply. "And nobody ever blamed Clarence,
with Paula!"
Rachael, looking fixedly at her, sat as if turned to stone.
"You are brave, Magsie, to come and tell me this," she said at last
quietly.
"You are kind to listen to me," Magsie answered with disarming
sincerity. "I know it is a strange thing to do." She laughed nervously.
"Of course, I know THAT!" she added. "But it came to me that I would
the other day. Greg and I were talking about dreams, you know--things
we wanted to do. And we talked about going away to some beach, and
swimming, and moonlight, and just rest--and quiet--"
"I see," Rachael said.
"Greg said, 'This is only a dream, Magsie, and we mustn't let ourselves
dream!'" Magsie went on. "But--but sometimes dreams come true, don't
they?"
She stopped. There was an unearthly silence in the room.
"I've tried to fight it, and I cannot," Magsie presently said in a
small, tired voice; "it comes between me and everything I do. I'm not a
great actress--I know that. I don't even want to be any more. I want to
go away where no one will ever see me or hear of me again. I've heard
of this--feeling"--she sent Rachael a brave if rather uncertain
smile--"but I never believed in it before! I never believed that
when--when you care"--Rachael was grateful to be spared the great
word--"you can't live or breathe or think anything"--again there was an
evasion--"but the one thing!"
And with a long, tired sigh, again she relapsed into silence. Rachael
could find nothing to say.
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