Rachael, in turn, was puzzled. Carol was undeniably a pretty child,
with all a spoiled child's confident charm, but in all good-natured
generosity Rachael could not see in her the subtle and irresistible
fascinations that her father so eagerly exploited. Surely no girl of
ten, however gifted, could be reasonably supposed to eclipse completely
the woman Rachael knew herself to be; surely no parental infatuation
could extend itself to the point of a remarriage with the bettering of
a small child's position alone the object.
Philosophy came promptly to the aid of the new-made wife. Billy was a
child, and Clarence a greater child. The situation was annoying, was
belittling to her own pride, but she would meet it with dignity
nevertheless. After all, the visible benefits of the marriage were
still hers: the new car, the new furs, the new and wonderful sense of
financial ease, of social certainty.
She schooled herself to listen with an indulgent smile to her husband's
fond rhapsodies about his daughter. She agreed amiably that Billy would
be a great beauty, a heart-breaker, that "the little monkey had all the
other women crazy with jealousy now, by Jove!" She selected the little
gowns and hats in which the radiant Billy went off for long days alone
with "Daddy," and she presently graciously consented to share the
little girl's luxurious room because Billy sometimes awakened nervously
at night. Rachael had been accustomed to difficulties in dealing with
the persons nearest her; she met them resolutely. Sometimes a baffling
sense of failure smote the surface of her life, like a cold wind that
turns to white metal the smooth waters of a lake, but she held her head
proudly above it, and even Clarence and his daughter never guessed what
she endured. What did it matter? Rachael asked herself wearily. She had
not asked for love. She had resolutely exchanged what she had to give
for what she had determined to get; Clarence had made no blind
protestations, had expected no golden romance. He admired her; she knew
he thought it was splendid of her to manage the engagement and marriage
with so little fuss; perhaps his jaded pulses fluttered a little when
Rachael, exquisite in her bridal newness, stooped at the railway
station to give the drooping Billy a good-bye kiss, and promise that in
three days they would be back to rescue her from the hated governess;
but paramount above all other emotions, she suspected, was the
tremendous satisfaction of having gained just the right woman to
straighten out his tangled domestic affairs, just the mother, as the
years went by, to do the correct thing for Billy.
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