"I don't," she admitted, quite frankly. "We take it seriously,
as we do most of our amusements, but it's a relic of barbarism.
Once, when I was a very little girl, my father took me to see a
Ute scalp-dance,--without the scalps, of course,--and--well, first
impressions are apt to be lasting. I never see a ball-room in action
without thinking of Fire-in-the-Snow and his capering braves."
Jeffard smiled at the conceit, but he spoke to the truism.
"I hope your first impressions of me won't be lasting," he ventured. "I
think I was more than usually churlish last night."
She glanced up quickly. "There should be no 'last night' for us," she
averred.
"Forgive me; you are quite right. But no matter what happens there
always will be."
Her gaze lost itself among the circling figures beyond the archway, and
the truth of the assertion drove itself home with a twinge of something
like regret. But when she turned to him again there was unashamed
frankness in the clear gray eyes.
"What poor minions the conventions have made us," she said. "Let us be
primitive and admit that our acquaintance began last night. Does that
help you?"
"It will help me very much, if you will let me try to efface the first
impression."
"Does it need effacing?"
"I think it must. I was moody and half desperate."
He stopped, and she knew that he was waiting for some sign of
encouragement. She looked away again, meaning not to give it. It is one
of the little martyrdoms of sympathetic souls to invite confidences and
thereby to suffer vicariously for the misdoings of the erring majority,
and her burdens in this wise were many and heavy. Why should she go out
of her way to add to them those of this man who ought to be abundantly
able to carry his own? Thus the unspoken question, and the answer came
close upon the heels of it. But for her own curiosity,--impertinence,
she had begun to call it,--the occasion would never have arisen.
"I am listening," she said, giving him his sign.
Being permitted to speak freely, Jeffard found himself suddenly
tongue-tied. "I don't know what I ought to say,--if, indeed, I ought to
say anything at all," he began. "I think I gave you to understand that
the world had been using me rather hardly."
"And if you did?"
A palpitant couple, free of the waltz, came up the stair, and Jeffard
rose to make way. When the breathless ones perched themselves on the
landing above, he went on, standing on the step below her and leaning
against the baluster.
"If I did, it was an implied untruth. It's a trite saying that the
world is what we make it, and I am quite sure now that I have been
making my part of it since I came to Denver. I'm not going to afflict
you with the formula, but I shall feel better for having told you that
I have torn it up and thrown it away."
"And you will write out another?"
"Beginning with to-morrow. I leave Denver in the morning."
"You are not going back?" She said it with a little tang of deprecation
in the words.
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