And in the west the mountains swelled to a great dome, and on the dome
was a mound, the memorial of some forgotten race, that grew dark and
large against the red sky, when the sun set. He had lingered below it
in the solitude, amongst the winds, at evening, far away from home; and
oh, the labour and the vain efforts to make the form of it and the awe
of it in prose, to write the hush of the vast hill, and the sadness of
the world below sinking into the night, and the mystery, the suggestion
of the rounded hillock, huge against the magic sky.
He had tried to sing in words the music that the brook sang, and the
sound of the October wind rustling through the brown bracken on the
hill. How many pages he had covered in the effort to show a white
winter world, a sun without warmth in a grey-blue sky, all the fields,
all the land white and shining, and one high summit where the dark
pines towered, still in the still afternoon, in the pale violet air.
To win the secret of words, to make a phrase that would murmur of
summer and the bee, to summon the wind into a sentence, to conjure the
odour of the night into the surge and fall and harmony of a line; this
was the tale of the long evenings, of the candle flame white upon the
paper and the eager pen.
He remembered that in some fantastic book he had seen a bar or two of
music, and, beneath, the inscription that here was the musical
expression of Westminster Abbey. His boyish effort seemed hardly less
ambitious, and he no longer believed that language could present the
melody and the awe and the loveliness of the earth. He had long known
that he, at all events, would have to be content with a far approach,
with a few broken notes that might suggest, perhaps, the magistral
everlasting song of the hill and the streams.
But in those far days the impossible was but a part of wonderland that
lay before him, of the world beyond the wood and the mountain. All was
to be conquered, all was to be achieved; he had but to make the journey
and he would find the golden world and the golden word, and hear those
songs that the sirens sang. He touched the manuscript; whatever it was,
it was the result of painful labour and disappointment, not of the old
flush of hope, but it came of weary days, of correction and
re-correction. It might be good in its measure; but afterwards he would
write no more for a time. He would go back again to the happy world of
masterpieces, to the dreams of great and perfect books, written in an
ecstasy.
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