Again, and without reason, he began to image to himself that old
mouldering house in the field. With what a loud incessant noise the
wind must be clamoring about on this fearful night, how the great elm
swayed and cried in the storm, and the rain dashed and pattered on the
windows, and dripped on the sodden earth from the shaking shrubs beside
the door. He moved uneasily on his chair, and struggled to put the
picture out of his thoughts; but in spite of himself he saw the stained
uneven walls, that ugly blot of mildew above the window, and perhaps a
feeble gleam of light filtered through the blind, and some one, unhappy
above all and for ever lost, sat within the dismal room. Or rather,
every window was black, without a glimmer of hope, and he who was shut
in thick darkness heard the wind and the rain, and the noise of the
elm-tree moaning and beating and weeping on the walls.
For all his effort the impression would not leave him, and as he sat
before his desk looking into the vague darkness he could almost see
that chamber which he had so often imagined; the low whitewashed
ceiling held up by a heavy beam, the smears of smoke and long usage,
the cracks and fissures of the plaster. Old furniture, shabby,
deplorable, battered, stood about the room; there was a horsehair sofa
worn and tottering, and a dismal paper, patterned in a livid red,
blackened and mouldered near the floor, and peeled off and hung in
strips from the dank walls. And there was that odour of decay, of the
rank soil steaming, of rotting wood, a vapor that choked the breath and
made the heart full of fear and heaviness.
Lucian again shivered with a thrill of dread; he was afraid that he had
overworked himself and that he was suffering from the first symptoms of
grave illness. His mind dwelt on confused and terrible recollections,
and with a mad ingenuity gave form and substance to phantoms; and even
now he drew a long breath, almost imagining that the air in his room
was heavy and noisome, that it entered his nostrils with some taint of
the crypt. And his body was still languid, and though he made a half
motion to rise he could not find enough energy for the effort, and he
sank again into the chair. At all events, he would think no more of
that sad house in the field; he would return to those long struggles
with letters, to the happy nights when he had gained victories.
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