In the curious silence which followed the last notes, when the boy and
girl had passed under the purple ilex shadow, he fell into a reverie.
The fancy that sensations are symbols and not realities hovered in his
mind, and led him to speculate as to whether they could not actually be
transmuted one into another. It was possible, he thought, that a whole
continent of knowledge had been undiscovered; the energies of men
having been expended in unimportant and foolish directions. Modern
ingenuity had been employed on such trifles as locomotive engines,
electric cables, and cantilever bridges; on elabourate devices for
bringing uninteresting people nearer together; the ancients had been
almost as foolish, because they had mistaken the symbol for the thing
signified. It was not the material banquet which really mattered, but
the thought of it; it was almost as futile to eat and take emetics and
eat again as to invent telephones and high-pressure boilers. As for
some other ancient methods of enjoying life, one might as well set
oneself to improve calico printing at once.
“Only in the garden of Avallaunius,” said Lucian to himself, “is the
true and exquisite science to be found.”
He could imagine a man who was able to live in one sense while he
pleased; to whom, for example, every impression of touch, taste,
hearing, or seeing should be translated into odour; who at the desired
kiss should be ravished with the scent of dark violets, to whom music
should be the perfume of a rose-garden at dawn.
When, now and again, he voluntarily resumed the experience of common
life, it was that he might return with greater delight to the garden in
the city of refuge. In the actual world the talk was of Nonconformists,
the lodger franchise, and the Stock Exchange; people were constantly
reading newspapers, drinking Australian Burgundy, and doing other
things equally absurd. They either looked shocked when the fine art of
pleasure was mentioned, or confused it with going to musical comedies,
drinking bad whisky, and keeping late hours in disreputable and vulgar
company. He found to his amusement that the profligate were by many
degrees duller than the pious, but that the most tedious of all were
the persons who preached promiscuity, and called their system of
“pigging” the “New Morality.”
He went back to the city lovingly, because it was built and adorned for
his love. As the metaphysicians insist on the consciousness of the ego
as the implied basis of all thought, so he knew that it was she in whom
he had found himself, and through whom and for whom all the true life
existed. He felt that Annie had taught him the rare magic which had
created the garden of Avallaunius. It was for her that he sought
strange secrets and tried to penetrate the mysteries of sensation, for
he could only give her wonderful thoughts and a wonderful life, and a
poor body stained with the scars of his worship.
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