American essays -- 20th century; Child development; Children; Education
"Come, we must find him ... take me to the place where you left
him--come quickly----"
It was some distance. We walked at first in silence. It seemed as if
I could not live if I did not find out what she would have done this
morning in my place. Presently she said:
"I thought he would fail when it came to ordering a charge. He was very
brave, they say."
I loved the students who told her that, but I had known too much
torture to keep the perfect silence.
"... It was hard for him.... He isn't a killer--he saw only the
white-haired boys----"
"My beloved----" she whispered.
"I told him that it was the same in Petrograd as here--that the dream
held here--that you would have told him to be strong at the death
part----"
She was not listening. She did not answer.
* * * * *
"It was just here. He was wounded a trifle. I left him to stop the
troops. They were breaking a bit," I explained.
I had passed the place a dozen times. I remembered by the big
_Sanguinary_--hot when I had let go of Varsieff's arm. The dead had
been covered. The big gun was a wreck now--even the caisson with a
broken wheel.
Then I realised it had been moved. There was a queer mound under the
wreckage. I reached down; my hand felt warmth in the mud. The woman was
with me.... I think we moved that mammoth caisson together.... There
was no white on him--a coating of mud but warm. We lifted him and the
woman's breast covered him from my eyes.... I heard him say her name. I
heard him speak of the tropical island they would go to together....
I stood apart--I who had stood at his side so long.... There were
seconds when I heard her low passionate whispers--when I watched the
arch of her shoulder, the beauty of her bended brow.... I did not see
his face again. She held it fast to her and talked somehow out of the
world. Then I saw her raise her eyes as she had done that night in the
tent. For the first time I realised that he had only kept alive for her
coming.... But still I felt he must know the whole story. I did not go
closer, but called in half a whisper:
"Tell him how the boys came together--arms out and laughing like
brothers. Don't let him go without knowing that--tell him how they
threw their guns away and then sat down on the ground together--singing
of home and the rivers and the ploughed lands and the women waiting for
us----"
"I told him--I told him!" she answered. "You may come to him ... but
he--he only waited to see me.... Ah, Lange, you had him so much----"
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