In a few weeks the little crowd she had called about her disappeared,
and she was left alone, quite against their judgment. They all had
pleasant homes to offer her, and it seemed to them that the large house
they had once peopled would be fearfully lonely now. But she maintained
that, with her health and strength, it was better that she should have
a home and cares of her own, and a rallying point where they could meet
on festal days, as heretofore. So she gradually fell back into the old
routine, entering into every one's cares, and interests, and joys, and
sorrows, exactly as if she had been created for their special use and
comfort, going hither and thither on all sorts of busy commissions,
and appearing very much as usual, only a trifle sweeter and gentler.
One of her first deeds of kindness was gathering all Maud's clothing
together, and sending it to her young friends or needy maidens; and
so far from weeping over this task, she took delight in it, realizing
how much pleasure she was about to give, or how much service to
render. She even smiled at her own mistake, when she saw a very tall
young girl try to adapt herself to one of Maud's petite dresses, and
rectified it at once. But when it came to her child's favorite books
and pictures--the things her heart and soul had reveled in--it was very
different; she could not part with them. They had been separated very
little, so that she had not a single letter from her to treasure up;
but she found in the pocket of the last dress she wore a copy of an
evidently favorite hymn, together with a few texts of Scripture. She
gave away pearls, and diamonds, and lace that had been Maud's; but no
king was rich enough to buy that half-worn scrap of paper.
Maud had many schemes of benevolence which it was now a sacred pleasure
to carry out; and although when she now went forth on her errands of
mercy, she appeared to go alone rather than with her loving child's
companionship, she was not alone, and not unhappy; nay more, she
was happy. For when, without a frown, she gave her darling into the
Master's hand, He came and more than filled her place, giving the peace
that passes all understanding. Now this consciousness of the presence
of Christ in the soul is the one thing whose loss the Christian
believer, who has once enjoyed it, cannot do without. Husband and wife,
home, children, friends, reputation, may all go, and the heart still
have a song to sing; but let Him go, or even seem to go, and all the
beatitudes on earth are broken fountains that can hold no water. One
may find distraction in congenial employment, and comfort and joy in
home and friends; but real, abiding _happiness_, in its full sense, can
only be found in Him for whom the soul was created.
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