Domestic fiction; Families -- Fiction; Sex role -- Fiction; Spouses -- Fiction
On the cot opposite little Stephen lay sleeping as vigorously as he did
everything, one tightly clenched small fist flung up on his pillow.
What a strong, handsome kid he was. Whatever could be the matter with
him to make him act so like the devil? Strange to see a _little_ kid
like that, so hateful, seem to take such a satisfaction in raising
hell.
Well, there was the furnace fire to fix. He thrust his feet into
slippers, put his dressing-gown over his pyjamas and shuffled
downstairs, hearing behind him the firm, regular step of Evangeline as
she went from the bathroom to the bedroom. On the way down he woke up
enough to realize what made life look so specially intolerable that
morning; the return of Jerome Willing and his own definite failure to
make good in the new organization of the store. The significance of
that and all that it foretold stood out more harshly than ever in the
pale, dawn-gray of the cold empty kitchen. Oh, hell!
He flung open the cellar door and ran downstairs to run away from the
thought. But it was waiting for him, blackly in the coal-bin, luridly
in the firebox.
“It looks just about like the jumping-off place for me,” he thought,
rattling the furnace-shaker gloomily; “only I can’t jump. Where to?”
Well, anyhow, in the few minutes before breakfast, while his
stomach was empty, he was free from that dull leaden mass of misery
turning over and over inside him at intervals, which was the usual
accompaniment of his every waking hour. That was _some_thing to be
thankful for.
He strained his lean arms to throw the coal from his shovel well back
into the firebox, and leveled it evenly with the long poker. Evangeline
always found time to go down to see if he had done it right before he
got away after breakfast.
Then he stood for a moment, struck as he often was, by the leaping
many-tongued fury of the little pale-blue pointed flames. He looked
at them, fascinated by the baleful lustfulness of their attack on the
helpless lumps of coal thrown into their inferno.
“The seat of desolation, void of light
Save what the glimmering of those livid flames
Casts, pale and dreadful. Yet from those flames
No light, but rather darkness visible,
Serves only to discover sights of woe.”
He heard the words crackle in the flames. He said to himself gravely:
“Sights of woe it surely is.”
He heard Evangeline begin to rattle the shaker of the kitchen stove and
started from his hypnotized stare at the flames. It was time for him
to beat it back upstairs if he didn’t want to be late. How he loathed
his life-long slavery to the clock, that pervasive intimate negative
opposed to every spontaneous impulse. “It’s the clock that is the
nay-sayer to life,” he thought, as he climbed the cellar stairs. He
hurried upstairs, dressed and began to shave.
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