Domestic fiction; Families -- Fiction; Sex role -- Fiction; Spouses -- Fiction
His heart ached with remorse as he thought of the life to which he
had condemned her. Why, like Stephen, she had been buried alive in a
shaft deep under the earth, and she had not even had Stephen’s poor
passionate outlet of misdirected fury. What she thought was her duty
had held her bound fast in a death-like silence and passivity. He
remembered the somber, taciturn, self-contained woman who had sat
opposite him, year after year, at the supper-table. Could that be the
same Eva who now, evening after evening, made them all gay with her
accounts of the humors of her profession; who could take off a fussy
customer so to the life that even Stephen laughed; who could talk with
such inspired animation of the variations of fashion that even he
listened, deadly as was his hatred for fashion and all that it stood
for! He had never even suspected that Eva had this jolly sense of
humor! Could it be the same Eva who so briskly dealt the cards around
every evening and took up her hand with such interest?
Those evenings of whist had been an inspiration of his, in answer to
two questions he had set himself: What could he invent that would
keep Eva’s mind off the housekeeping in the evenings? And what could
he and Eva and the children do together, which they would all really
and truly enjoy--what was some natural manner in which to make a
civilized contact between the two generations and the widely differing
temperaments? It was delightful to him to see how Eva enjoyed it, how
she liked to win (just think of her caring to win! How young in nature
she remained! She made him feel like Methuselah!). How cheerily and
heartily she coached Henry along, how the children admired her skill
and luck, and how she enjoyed their admiration.
Heavens! How unhappy she must have been before, like a Titan forced
to tend a miniature garden; forced to turn the great flood of that
inherited, specialized ability of hers into the tiny shallow channels
of the infinitely minute detail of child-care; forced, day after day,
hour by hour, minute by minute, with no respite, into a life-and-death
closeness of contact with the raw, unfinished personalities of the
children, from which her own ripe maturity recoiled in an ever-renewed
impatience. Eva always hated anything unfinished! And nothing around
her ever stayed unfinished very long. How she put through any job she
undertook! She had sat up all one night to finish that sofa she had so
wonderfully refurbished.
But you couldn’t put through the job of bringing up children. No amount
of energy on your part, no, not if you sat up all night every night
of your life, could hurry by a single instant the slow unfolding from
within of a child’s nature....
Eva dropped out of Lester’s mind whenever he thought of this, and he
was all flooded with the sweet, early-morning light that shone from his
daughter’s childhood. He always felt like taking off his hat when he
thought of Helen.
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