My haste was not due to fear of being scolded for being late. I
was sure that no one had so much as thought of me. But merely by
approaching the gate I had felt the strange uneasiness which at that
time seemed to pervade the house like some formal guest whose presence
makes every one feel ill at ease. Domestic tragedies make their
approach felt long in advance by signs somewhat like those of a coming
storm: a breathless atmosphere, intermittent showers of tears, the
distant murmur of recriminations and laments. There was electricity
in the air. My mother, who never failed to light her blessed candle
as soon as thunder began to growl, was praying more often than ever,
and I could see that she was anxious, for her pure eyes could never
hide anything. Aunt Deen tore up and down stairs with feverish, almost
war-like, ardour, inflamed with a rage that gave her an invincible
strength, amazing The Hanged, and making those spiders that thought
themselves just beyond reach suffer the ruthlessly avenging wolf’s
head. She was continually uttering threats against invisible enemies.
Ah! the wretches! They would soon know with whom they had to deal!
“They” were certainly getting vigorous castigation in advance. Even
our father, generally so self-controlled, appeared absorbed. At table
he would sometimes throw back his head as if to drive away troublesome
thoughts. And more than once I had perceived him conversing in a low
voice with our mother, giving her documents on blue paper to read, the
words of which I did not understand. Every one was on the alert for
something to happen, perhaps a bulletin of victory or of disaster, such
as comes to a country where the armies are on the frontier.
Alone among these secret parleyings, these evident anxieties,
grandfather maintained the most complete indifference. Evidently the
approaching event was no affair of his. He played the violin, smoked
his pipe, consulted his barometer, inspected the sky, predicted the
weather, as if nothing could be more important, and he went regularly
for his walk. Nothing was changing, nothing could change for him except
the clouds across the sun. As for things of earth, they were utterly
without importance.
Once father attempted to ask his opinion, or present to him the peril
of a situation which I could not in the least understand. His words
were supplicating, moving, pathetic, yet full of a respect which in no
degree lessened their emphasis. Eying on the floor with my school book
I lost nothing of the conversation, instead of studying my lesson.
But I could catch only detached words which by degrees filled me with
terror: “careless administration,” “responsibility,” “mortgage,”
“sentence,” “total ruin,” “auction,” and at last the terrifying
conclusion, like the blow of a cane on my head.
“Then we must leave the house?”
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