“YOU are in luck,” my brothers would say to me as they prepared to face
the dreaded examinations for the baccalaureate, bending from morning
till night over their books through all the trying July heat; “no
school, no examinations, no possible failures for you.”
“And no piano,” Louise would add, for having given evidence of an
aptitude for music she had been set to work at never-ending five-finger
exercises.
Even little James, rebellious under his first lessons in reading and
writing, confided to his inseparable Nicola that when he was big he
would do like François.
“What does Francis do?” she would ask.
“Nothing.”
The month of August drew on without awaking that impatience which its
approach had never failed to arouse in me until this year; I even felt
a selfish regret as it came nearer. Vacation would rob me of that
superiority which convalescence had conferred upon me, and would put me
back into my place, the common life. Or rather, I supposed it would do
so, being incompetent to measure the chasm that had opened between the
little boy that I had been yesterday, and what I had now become. Some
one had measured it before me.
I had become much absorbed between my walks and my visits to the
Café of the Navigators, whither grandfather, who was no longer happy
without my companionship, was taking me regularly. Though I was rather
unobservant of the acts and doings of the family, I again became aware
of an atmosphere of anxiety at our house, and of secret conferences
that recalled to me the days when the destiny of our property had been
at stake.
Father’s voice was penetrating, even when he moderated it and believed
himself to be speaking softly.
“We shall have no fortune to leave them,” he was saying. “We must
neglect nothing in their education. They must be armed for life.”
We, armed? Why should we be armed? Nothing was easier than life. I
had outgrown wooden swords, heroic biographies, epic stories. All I
should need would be a few tools for working in the ground, which
furnishes men abundantly with all they need. One would harvest so much
as was necessary, one would live on white cheese, sweet cream and wild
strawberries, and listen to Martinod, preaching universal peace and
proclaiming the arrival of the golden age. How simple the programme!
What need was there of arms?
Mother was answering father.
“You are right. We must neglect nothing. Their faith and their union
will be their only fortune.”
Far from being touched by this declaration of principles, I was
imagining the little laugh with which grandfather would meet it, and
one morning while combing my hair I practised my face in assuming a
satirical expression.
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