SUCH, as far as a few strokes can picture him, was John Baltazar, at the
time when his unsuspected son lay footless in the convalescent home and
discussed with Marcelle Baring the mystery of his existence. A man of
many failings, many intolerances, of some ruthlessness. A man both
sensitive and hard; both bold and shrinking; with the traditional habits
of the ostrich and the heart of a lion. A man apparently given to
extravagances of caprice; and yet remaining always constant to himself,
preserving also throughout his strange career a perfect unity of
character. Perhaps, regarding him from another point of view, his
detractors may say that he loved to play to himself as audience and,
further, put that audience in the gallery. Why not? It is in the essence
of human consciousness that a man must, in some measure, be an actor to
himself. The degree depends on the human equation. Dumas _fils_ once
said of his immortal semi-mulatto father: “He is quite capable of
getting up behind his own carriage, in order to persuade people that he
keeps a black footman.” A savage epigram. But it would have been a
deeper truth if he had said that the wonder of a man who was his father,
was capable of doing it, in order to persuade himself that he kept a
black footman. The more we limit the audience to the man himself, the
more we love him. The more human does the vivid creature appear to us.
If Baltazar played to that audience of one, he had many illustrious
colleagues. If again his method was melodramatic, it at least had
breadth. It dealt with big issues in a broad and simple way. . . .
“That’s what I love about the three great systems of Chinese ethics,” he
would declare. “There’s no damned subtlety about them. You accept the
various propositions or you, don’t. There are no _homoousian_ and
_homoiousian_ conflicts, and suchlike rubbish, that have torn Western
thought to ribbons for over a thousand years. In China you go straight
to the heart of truth. All the subtlety lies, Quong Ho, in the correct
interpretation of your appalling but fascinating script.”
This was a rough profession of faith, almost an analysis of character.
The intellect of the mathematician delighted in the process of arriving
at exactness of statement, but at the same time that statement’s
philosophic simplicity appealed to a nature fundamentally simple.
He abhorred complications. That was his weakness. He claimed,
unphilosophically, the absolute. Hence the abandonment of his academical
career, involving at the same time the merciless abandonment of his
wife. Hence the clean cut of his career in China, where a little supple
coquetting with political corruption would have brought him great wealth
and power. Hence the impenetrable wall he had now contrived between
himself and the rest of mankind. He had no power of compromise.
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