New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Prostitutes -- Fiction
"Then what," he asked, "can I do to convince you? I won't upbraid
you; I won't be harsh. My sane course would be to pay no attention
to accusations from such a character as this Mary Morton, and your
sane course would be to pay no attention to them. But I know how
things are in this neighborhood; I know the bad atmosphere you have
been breathing ever since you came down here. Long ago I told you
exactly what would happen; I foresaw it all. I told you when you
insisted on going into this work that these women would poison your
mind, distort your vision, make you doubt all that is best in life.
Apparently, they have succeeded; but I don't speak of that. Marian,
unless it was in some police-court--perhaps at the time I saw Rose
Légère--I never saw this girl in my life. I don't understand her
enmity any better than you do. It may spring from some imagined
wrong to one of her friends, or it may be a political plot. But,
except as it affects your regard for me, I don't care anything about
it. All that I do care about, all that I do want to accomplish is to
restore you to a normal view of things, get you out of these foul
mental and material surroundings, and bring you back to your own
proper world. I want to do this and to make you know the truth
concerning myself. Tell me what will bring this about, and I'll do
it without a moment's loss of time."
He thought that, in the nature of the case, there was nothing very
difficult or inconvenient that she could demand; but he had counted
too much on the artificial and too little upon the natural and
primitive woman.
Her face still hidden, she felt the full force of his appeal, but the
tempest had its wild will of her. She believed him guilty; she
believed him innocent. She believed that, if he were guilty,
temptation had come from the woman; she believed that, if he were
innocent, there was nevertheless something--she did not know
what--that he was hiding from her. Faith was ready to destroy much,
but would not jealousy destroy more? Her jealousy had consumed
dignity, it had ravaged custom, it was burning restraint.
Mary's words had drawn in Marian's mind a concrete picture, and the
contemplation of that picture had awakened an anger in which her
genuine love had for the first time genuinely expressed itself.
Before, she could have heard with light regret of Dyker's engagement
to marry another woman. Before, she might herself have drifted with
him through a placid wooing into the port of marriage that, until
this revelation, she had in no wise understood. But now she saw
things specifically, and in the element of the specific the quality
that she had known as "womanliness" was dissolved and the thing that
she at last knew to be Woman was evolved.
The issue, she was thus still determined, depended upon proof of
innocence. He must be clean, and she must know it.
She uncovered her fine face, strangely stronger for its grief.
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