The House of Defence v. 1Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
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The House of Defence v. 1
Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
Christian Science -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Spiritual healing -- Fiction
Anyone as radically efficient as Catherine Thurso undoubtedly was has to
march through life with as few impedimenta as possible, and all
emotional baggage which is not likely to be needed must be firmly left
behind. She had long ago realised this, and had always acted on it, so
that now it was more from force of habit than by any conscious effort
that she eliminated from her mind any emotion on its first appearance if
it was likely to clog or hinder her energies. Worry, sorrow, regret for
all that was past or irremediable, she simply threw away as one throws
the envelopes of opened letters into the wastepaper basket. They were of
no earthly use; they but made an unprofitable litter if they were
allowed to lie about, nor did you want the drawers and compartments in
your brain crammed with rubbish like this. Thus, it was but very seldom
that she let her thoughts dwell on the one great thing that she had
missed all her life. She had never loved. Her marriage with Thurso had,
as the Press most truly announced, "been arranged," and she had fallen
in with this arrangement. Even as a girl she had wanted the sort of
position and opportunity that such a marriage gave her, and she had
made, certainly outwardly, and to a very considerable extent inwardly,
the most splendid success of it. She had done her duty, too, as a wife
in giving him three sons, and had filled her place superbly. But love
had never really come to her. That, by no fault of hers, had apparently
been left out of her emotional equipment, and since she was convinced
that this omission was not her fault, and that it was out of her power
to remedy it, she did not worry about it. But to-day, though she did not
worry, she could not help wondering about a certain time now long past
in her life, since it was conceivable that certain things which as yet
belonged only to time long past would begin to be factors in her life in
the immediate future. So now that the question of the staircase and the
coming speech at the Industrial Sale were off her mind, these things
occupied her somewhat insistently. There was no mystery about it all,
and nothing whatever to fear either in the past or the future; but
certain possibilities interested her.
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