New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Single women -- Fiction; Social classes -- Fiction
She smiled, recognizing the heroism of the offer to the point of
being frankly touched by it. “Thank you—I shall be very glad,” she
made answer, in the first sincere words she had ever spoken to him.
* * * * *
That evening in her own room Miss Bart—who had fled early from
the heavy fumes of the basement dinner-table—sat musing upon the
impulse which had led her to unbosom herself to Rosedale. Beneath
it she discovered an increasing sense of loneliness—a dread of
returning to the solitude of her room, while she could be anywhere
else, or in any company but her own. Circumstances, of late, had
combined to cut her off more and more from her few remaining
friends. On Carry Fisher’s part the withdrawal was perhaps not
quite involuntary. Having made her final effort on Lily’s behalf,
and landed her safely in Mme. Regina’s work-room, Mrs. Fisher
seemed disposed to rest from her labours; and Lily, understanding
the reason, could not condemn her. Carry had in fact come
dangerously near to being involved in the episode of Mrs. Norma
Hatch, and it had taken some verbal ingenuity to extricate herself.
She frankly owned to having brought Lily and Mrs. Hatch together,
but then she did not know Mrs. Hatch—she had expressly warned Lily
that she did not know Mrs. Hatch—and besides, she was not Lily’s
keeper, and really the girl was old enough to take care of herself.
Carry did not put her own case so brutally, but she allowed it to
be thus put for her by her latest bosom friend, Mrs. Jack Stepney:
Mrs. Stepney, trembling over the narrowness of her only brother’s
escape, but eager to vindicate Mrs. Fisher, at whose house she
could count on the “jolly parties” which had become a necessity to
her since marriage had emancipated her from the Van Osburgh point
of view.
Lily understood the situation and could make allowances for it.
Carry had been a good friend to her in difficult days, and perhaps
only a friendship like Gerty’s could be proof against such an
increasing strain. Gerty’s friendship did indeed hold fast; yet
Lily was beginning to avoid her also. For she could not go to
Gerty’s without risk of meeting Selden; and to meet him now would
be pure pain. It was pain enough even to think of him, whether she
considered him in the distinctness of her waking thoughts, or felt
the obsession of his presence through the blur of her tormented
nights. That was one of the reasons why she had turned again to
Mrs. Hatch’s prescription. In the uneasy snatches of her natural
dreams he came to her sometimes in the old guise of fellowship and
tenderness; and she would rise from the sweet delusion mocked and
emptied of her courage. But in the sleep which the phial procured
she sank far below such half-waking visitations, sank into depths
of dreamless annihilation from which she woke each morning with an
obliterated past.
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