There was something very beautiful in the relation that grew up between
this pair, so closely and constantly linked together, yet with such a
waste of gloomy and mysterious years from his birthday to hers. On
Clifford’s part it was the feeling of a man naturally endowed with the
liveliest sensibility to feminine influence, but who had never quaffed
the cup of passionate love, and knew that it was now too late. He knew
it, with the instinctive delicacy that had survived his intellectual
decay. Thus, his sentiment for Phœbe, without being paternal, was not
less chaste than if she had been his daughter. He was a man, it is
true, and recognized her as a woman. She was his only representative of
womankind. He took unfailing note of every charm that appertained to
her sex, and saw the ripeness of her lips, and the virginal development
of her bosom. All her little womanly ways, budding out of her like
blossoms on a young fruit-tree, had their effect on him, and sometimes
caused his very heart to tingle with the keenest thrills of pleasure.
At such moments,—for the effect was seldom more than momentary,—the
half-torpid man would be full of harmonious life, just as a long-silent
harp is full of sound, when the musician’s fingers sweep across it.
But, after all, it seemed rather a perception, or a sympathy, than a
sentiment belonging to himself as an individual. He read Phœbe as he
would a sweet and simple story; he listened to her as if she were a
verse of household poetry, which God, in requital of his bleak and
dismal lot, had permitted some angel, that most pitied him, to warble
through the house. She was not an actual fact for him, but the
interpretation of all that he lacked on earth brought warmly home to
his conception; so that this mere symbol, or life-like picture, had
almost the comfort of reality.
But we strive in vain to put the idea into words. No adequate
expression of the beauty and profound pathos with which it impresses us
is attainable. This being, made only for happiness, and heretofore so
miserably failing to be happy,—his tendencies so hideously thwarted,
that, some unknown time ago, the delicate springs of his character,
never morally or intellectually strong, had given way, and he was now
imbecile,—this poor, forlorn voyager from the Islands of the Blest, in
a frail bark, on a tempestuous sea, had been flung, by the last
mountain-wave of his shipwreck, into a quiet harbor. There, as he lay
more than half lifeless on the strand, the fragrance of an earthly
rose-bud had come to his nostrils, and, as odors will, had summoned up
reminiscences or visions of all the living and breathing beauty amid
which he should have had his home. With his native susceptibility of
happy influences, he inhales the slight, ethereal rapture into his
soul, and expires!
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