So it proved with Clifford. He shuddered; he grew pale; he threw an
appealing look at Hepzibah and Phœbe, who were with him at the window.
They comprehended nothing of his emotions, and supposed him merely
disturbed by the unaccustomed tumult. At last, with tremulous limbs, he
started up, set his foot on the window-sill, and in an instant more
would have been in the unguarded balcony. As it was, the whole
procession might have seen him, a wild, haggard figure, his gray locks
floating in the wind that waved their banners; a lonely being,
estranged from his race, but now feeling himself man again, by virtue
of the irrepressible instinct that possessed him. Had Clifford attained
the balcony, he would probably have leaped into the street; but whether
impelled by the species of terror that sometimes urges its victim over
the very precipice which he shrinks from, or by a natural magnetism,
tending towards the great centre of humanity, it were not easy to
decide. Both impulses might have wrought on him at once.
But his companions, affrighted by his gesture,—which was that of a man
hurried away in spite of himself,—seized Clifford’s garment and held
him back. Hepzibah shrieked. Phœbe, to whom all extravagance was a
horror, burst into sobs and tears.
“Clifford, Clifford! are you crazy?” cried his sister.
“I hardly know, Hepzibah,” said Clifford, drawing a long breath. “Fear
nothing,—it is over now,—but had I taken that plunge, and survived it,
methinks it would have made me another man!”
Possibly, in some sense, Clifford may have been right. He needed a
shock; or perhaps he required to take a deep, deep plunge into the
ocean of human life, and to sink down and be covered by its
profoundness, and then to emerge, sobered, invigorated, restored to the
world and to himself. Perhaps again, he required nothing less than the
great final remedy—death!
A similar yearning to renew the broken links of brotherhood with his
kind sometimes showed itself in a milder form; and once it was made
beautiful by the religion that lay even deeper than itself. In the
incident now to be sketched, there was a touching recognition, on
Clifford’s part, of God’s care and love towards him,—towards this poor,
forsaken man, who, if any mortal could, might have been pardoned for
regarding himself as thrown aside, forgotten, and left to be the sport
of some fiend, whose playfulness was an ecstasy of mischief.
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