Not to speak it harshly or scornfully, it seemed Clifford’s nature to
be a Sybarite. It was perceptible, even there, in the dark old parlor,
in the inevitable polarity with which his eyes were attracted towards
the quivering play of sunbeams through the shadowy foliage. It was seen
in his appreciating notice of the vase of flowers, the scent of which
he inhaled with a zest almost peculiar to a physical organization so
refined that spiritual ingredients are moulded in with it. It was
betrayed in the unconscious smile with which he regarded Phœbe, whose
fresh and maidenly figure was both sunshine and flowers,—their essence,
in a prettier and more agreeable mode of manifestation. Not less
evident was this love and necessity for the Beautiful, in the
instinctive caution with which, even so soon, his eyes turned away from
his hostess, and wandered to any quarter rather than come back. It was
Hepzibah’s misfortune,—not Clifford’s fault. How could he,—so yellow as
she was, so wrinkled, so sad of mien, with that odd uncouthness of a
turban on her head, and that most perverse of scowls contorting her
brow,—how could he love to gaze at her? But, did he owe her no
affection for so much as she had silently given? He owed her nothing. A
nature like Clifford’s can contract no debts of that kind. It is—we say
it without censure, nor in diminution of the claim which it
indefeasibly possesses on beings of another mould—it is always selfish
in its essence; and we must give it leave to be so, and heap up our
heroic and disinterested love upon it so much the more, without a
recompense. Poor Hepzibah knew this truth, or, at least, acted on the
instinct of it. So long estranged from what was lovely as Clifford had
been, she rejoiced—rejoiced, though with a present sigh, and a secret
purpose to shed tears in her own chamber that he had brighter objects
now before his eyes than her aged and uncomely features. They never
possessed a charm; and if they had, the canker of her grief for him
would long since have destroyed it.
The guest leaned back in his chair. Mingled in his countenance with a
dreamy delight, there was a troubled look of effort and unrest. He was
seeking to make himself more fully sensible of the scene around him;
or, perhaps, dreading it to be a dream, or a play of imagination, was
vexing the fair moment with a struggle for some added brilliancy and
more durable illusion.
“How pleasant!—How delightful!” he murmured, but not as if addressing
any one. “Will it last? How balmy the atmosphere through that open
window! An open window! How beautiful that play of sunshine! Those
flowers, how very fragrant! That young girl’s face, how cheerful, how
blooming!—a flower with the dew on it, and sunbeams in the dew-drops!
Ah! this must be all a dream! A dream! A dream! But it has quite hidden
the four stone walls!”
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