As soon as I had done so, my heart sank within me. What had I done?
Probably offended Mr. Rayner beyond recall by what must seem to him an
absurdly strained piece of prudery. It looked as if I thought myself a
person of such attractions that he wanted to kiss me to please
himself, instead of an insignificant little girl whom he was going to
kiss good-naturedly, as he might have done if he had been her father.
But then he was not my father, and not nearly old enough to be so,
however paternal and kind his manner might be; if he had been forty or
fifty, I should have submitted without a moment’s hesitation. But, if
Sarah or Mrs. Rayner, neither of whom seemed to like me very much, had
suddenly come in and found Mr. Rayner kissing me, she might have
mistaken, in a way which would have been very unpleasant for me, the
feeling which prompted him to do so. So I comforted myself as well as
I could with the thought that, after all, I had done only what was
right and prudent; and, if he was offended, well, there was no help
for it.
The next morning, to my great relief, his manner was just the same as
usual; of course what had caused so much thought and anxiety to the
girl of eighteen had seemed but a trifle to the man of
three-and-thirty. I wondered whether I should be summoned to the
drawing-room to accompany him on the violin, as he had spoken on the
previous night of wishing me to do. But at tea he was much
preoccupied, and told Sarah that a gentleman would be coming to see
him presently, who was to be shown into the study.
As he turned to say this, I noticed a sudden flash of horror pass over
Mrs. Rayner’s pale features and disappear in a moment, before her
husband could see her face again; and I thought I saw on Sarah’s dark
face a look of intelligence when the order was given her, as if she
too knew something about the expected visitor. I hope I am not very
inquisitive; but, in a quiet country-house to which, rightly or
wrongly, some suspicion of mystery is attached, one cannot help
noticing even trifles connected with unaccustomed events, and
wondering whether there is some meaning in them.
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