The House on the Moor, v. 1/3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The House on the Moor, v. 1/3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction
This day, and this meeting, and the opening of his close heart even so
far, had flashed into life the smouldering fire in the mind of Horace.
He strode on with long, rapid steps, thinking it scarcely possible that
he could contain himself within the miserable hermitage of Marchmain,
even for a night. He went along pondering schemes to surprise the secret
from his uncle, in spite of this first failure; and, intoxicated by the
first realization of freedom, to imagine himself altogether free, his
own master, triumphing over the world. But among these fancies there
mingled neither a desire nor any attempt to ascertain, as Colonel
Sutherland said, "his own inclinations," or to decide upon what he
should do. He said quite truly, when he reported of himself, that he had
no inclinations which concerned labour or a profession, and even in his
own thoughts he evaded that question. He could think closely, when the
matter was to find out, from his uncle's unsuspicious temper, his
father's secret; but not when the thing to determine was the needful
labour of his own life.
Meanwhile, Susan sat silent in her father's presence, longing for the
return of Horace, picturing him to herself seated opposite to her uncle,
free to say what he would, opening his heart under those genial looks,
bringing home kind thoughts and kind messages, sunned and mellowed by
that unsuspected love which had developed all the wonderful
possibilities of a new life to herself. Even Susan could not sit still
to-night--her patchwork had lost its attraction for her--her thoughts
rose too fast, and were too numerous, to make her ordinary quiet
possible. In spite of herself, and even unawares to herself, she was no
longer the noiseless girl who sat hushed for hours, opposite to that
rigid figure with the little reading-desk and open book. To her own
amazement, she caught herself once humming an incipient tune as she sat
over her work; and after a while found it impossible to sit still, and
moved about with an involuntary restlessness, finding little matters to
arrange in all the corners of the room, chairs to place differently, the
curtains to be drawn closer, the fire to be stirred, something to keep
her in motion, and express, by that only means permitted to her, the
unaccustomed stir and commotion in her own heart. And what was even more
remarkable, Mr. Scarsdale himself seemed to have an instinctive
perception of this, and to be somehow moved in his own calm. A close
observer might have perceived that he no longer travelled by mechanical
accuracy from beginning to end of his page--that the leaves were tamed
less regularly, and that his eyes were fixed upon the upper margin of
his book, sometimes for half an hour together, while he watched, without
looking at her, his daughter's movements, and heard the faint rustle of
her hushed motion about the room. He divined the cause, and knew the
emotion in her heart, with a strange and bitter certainty. He was aware
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